#actually just cuz i had to wait for new chapters to come out. LOL

[wiihtigo]

oh my gosh i just finished season 3 of mob psycho 100 and ive got to say tumblr has not spoiled any of it and i am ever greatful i have been following you for a LONG while, came in for sam and max and never left so seeing all the mob stuff i just skimmed over real fast. just wanted to thank you for being one of the biggest reminders for putting it on the "to watch" list. just gotta ask, with season 3 out is it worth reading the comics for any unique flavors or diverting story lines like people say with one punch man- i hear people say reading one punch is better then the show at all but i am so impressed with what mob the show has to over that i dont know how it can get better then this ahahah. the ending having cannon aro rep really had me hollering too ah gosh im still so hyped up after that ahahahah

MOB SWEEEEEEEEEEEEP im so happy to hear you enjoyed mob psycho! its one of my favorite animanga of all time..my toxic trait is that im actually such a manga reading elitist but the mob anime is one of those adaptations i recommend as much as, if not more than the manga its just that good. Speaking of manga elitism I would recc the manga! I havent read it in a long time......and the anime basically covers mostly everything but I think its worth it to see ONEs art and theres a lot of jokes they didnt include like the omakes, all of which are hilarious and sometimes the joke just hits better in comic form than it does animated. Plus, you should read the REIGEN spinoff manga if youd like! thats actually where my icon comes from- its set after mp100 and even though its titled as a reigen spinoff the main character is actually tome LOL. its really good and a great read for anyone wanting more after experiencing the main story

[makeste]

BnHA Volume 36 - Reaction Journey Part 2

continuing on our journey following yesterday’s volume 35 post! some more out-of-context random bullet point reactions taken from my reaction posts for each chapter. the full reactions for each chapter will go up eventually once I finish my manga catch-up marathon (currently at chapter 367).

spoiler warning: just fyi, this post will obviously feature spoilers for chapters 350-362, BUT it will also include a couple of stray spoilers from chapter 403 as well, so just a heads up for that if you aren’t fully caught up!

Chapter 351

friends, we are about to embark upon the most dramatic, theatrical, Shakespearean disaster of a fight this series has ever witnessed. brace yourselves

yes Shouto, that’s just cuz he literally doesn’t feel pain and doesn’t care if he lives or dies :’)

IS THIS PART OF THE PLAN??? IS SHOUTO NOT FIGHTING BACK BECAUSE HE’S TOO BUSY CONCENTRATING ON WHATEVER THING HE’S DOING?? BECAUSE IF NOT HOLY SHIT. YOU’RE ALLOWED TO FIGHT BACK SHOUTO

actually come to think of it, he hasn’t attacked once so far. not even the usual giant ice wall opener move. he’s definitely got something up his sleeve. but my god man in the meantime this is hard to watch

sorry Touya, but as justified as your grudge against Enji might be, your grudge against Shouto? not so much. I get it, life handed Shouto the keys to your dream life and he had the audacity to say he didn’t want to drive. but Shouto is allowed to make his own choices, and want his own things. for that matter, so are you. but you’re just stuck. gah. it’s so frustrating and yet the psychology of it is so incredibly compelling

“I might not have the clearest sense of my own identity, but at least I didn’t kill 30 people” fjdsjd gottem

“phosphor” is such a next-level attack name. pretty sure it has more to do with light than fire/heat, but with as white-hot as this attack looks to be, I get it and it definitely works

Chapter 352

love that Kaminari’s instinct when seeing this giant flaming X on Shouto’s chest is to immediately poke it. repeatedly. while Shouto just stands there and vibrates uncomfortably

finally!! a proper half-cold-half-hot ultimate supermove!! though I still don’t quite understand how “making fire that doesn’t actually burn things” is going to help in a battle in any kind of way. BUT I CAN’T WAIT TO BE PROPERLY EDUCATED

he’s thanking Deku. for helping him start to discover his true self all those eons ago. what a sweet sweet boy

omg here it comes ULTIMATE MOVE YESSSS

SLAM DUNK NAME AND VISUAL!!! 10/10!!! HELL FUCKING YEAH WAY TO LIVE UP TO THE HYPE HOLY SHIT

fuck. okay, yeah. if you give me a shounen character reminiscing over his hard-earned personal growth, and feeling profound gratitude toward his friends who helped him get this far, and then you suddenly hit me with the crying little kid panels to remind us of who these two characters really are, at the end of the day, once you strip away all the rest of it. you show me little baby Touya who’s just desperate to be loved and validated and acknowledged. and you show me little baby Shouto who understands his brother’s feelings completely, and doesn’t want to actually be here doing this, but knows that he has to because there’s no one else who can. if you go ahead and show me all of that!! well then!! I mean, good fucking job!! you knew exactly what you were doing!! well done!! you got the tears again so well done to you!! lmao

Chapter 353

okay is every single person here trying to jinx themselves now?? you guys do realize how absurdly lucky you are that Shouto finished his epic battle in the span of only 2 chapters? are you trying to draw more misfortune to yourselves??

“hey guys! great news, Todoroki already finished his fight” fdfklskf Kacchan’s gonna fucking lose it lmao. to say nothing of poor Deku who’s still busy hurtling across the Pacific

WHO IS THIS??!

lol what. he’s wearing a shirt collar and suit jacket as pants. and he’s got weird carpet hair and a disquietingly sexy face. AND FLOWER POWER?? who, is this, and why has it taken us 353 chapters to meet him. OR HER??? GENDER-AMBIGUOUS ON TOP OF EVERYTHING ELSE. YOUR FIGHT BETTER BE COOL AS HELL YOU WEIRDO

how is Spinner actually TWENTY FEET TALL NOW??? like, that earlier panel wasn’t actually a fluke or something, that was actually happening?? you smashed a bridge to pieces?!? somehow you’re a Kaijuu now???

this seriously cannot be it though, especially since Iida didn’t even get to do anything. and I really, really, really fucking hate how nervous it’s making me noooo whyyyy

Chapter 354

there is no possible way anything Endeavor tries here will actually work. he’s giving off so many dead man walking vibes right now and I am not okay

DOES FIRE EVEN WORK ON AFO?? LORD KNOWS IT DOESN’T WORK ON ANYBODY ELSE

Hawks is shouting at him lol. “remember what happened to All Might in Kamino!” for real though! how do they keep falling for it??

oh my god what a sickening realization. to learn that the reason you never found your child was that he was taken. not killed, but taken. that it was never even an accident at all, but deliberate. he was targeted and hurt and taken because of you. and the man responsible for it is standing right here in front of you

YOU HAD SIXTEEN-YEAR-OLDS??? YOU HAD MORE SUPERPOWERED OP SIXTEEN-YEAR-OLDS IN RESERVE THIS ENTIRE TIME???? AND YOU DIDN’T THINK TO USE THEM????

what’s AFO even going to do to them lol. I would love to see AFO stumble around and try to come up with some big intimidating weak-point-attacking speech for Tokoyami “The Darkness Is Where I Make My Home” Fumikage. he would probably love it. just sit there hungrily lapping it all up. “no but please keep telling me more about how tormented my soul is, this is great”

Chapter 355

I can’t believe Jirou and Tokoyami are about to fight god

I love Tokoyami and Hawks’s relationship so, so much. there’s just so much trust between the two of them. like on the surface it might seem like Hawks keeps underestimating Tokoyami every step of the way. but in reality it’s more that Hawks, being a former child soldier himself, is extremely reluctant to subject someone else to that, regardless of whether the circumstances are the same, and regardless of how capable Tokoyami keeps proving himself to be. yet another example of Hawks being continuously forced to walk a razor-thin line between decisions that he can live with, and decisions that will actually keep him alive. Tokoyami is a phenomenally powerful fighter, and his presence here absolutely helps tip the scales in their favor. but it’s also an insanely dangerous place for him to be, and so of course Hawks doesn’t want him here

meanwhile on Tokoyami’s end, he started out simply wanting to prove himself to Hawks, but once Hawks opened up to him, his exasperation almost immediately gave way to admiration and respect. and then he almost lost him at Jakku, and I think that really did a number on him, and so he’s so attached to and protective of him now. and I think that in turn has caused Hawks to try and keep his distance a little more, both because he has no idea how to deal with that emotionally, and because he doesn’t want Toko getting hurt. it’s such a delightfully complex relationship and I want to hold it and protect it with everything I have

AFO IS A BAD BITCH YES, BUT YOU ARE EVEN BADDER JIROU GET HIS ASS

lol he is REALLY cheesed about her showing him up in the previous chapter. definitely took it personally

I’m getting so many Bakugou vibes from this. legit getting chills over here. “shut your stupid mouth already.” she recognized the small dick energy a mile away

DIDN’T EVEN NEED ENDEAVOR AFTER ALL LMAO. THAT’S THE COOL, REFRESHING POWER OF JIROU

Chapter 356

AFO LITERALLY CAN’T EVEN PROCESS WHAT’S HAPPENING RIGHT NOW AND IT’S AMAZING

it’s okay to admit you just suck and are getting your ass whooped by Hawks and the sixteen-year-olds

what are you, a Zelda boss?? so he’s got a fucking phase 2 now?? WHY ARE YOU THE MOST ANNOYING MAN

DON’T DIE ENJI YOU FUCKING LOSER YOUR BOYS NEED CLOSURE AND SO DO I GODDAMMIT

ARE YOU REALLY DOING THIS WITH JUST THE ONE ARM YOU ABSOLUTE LUNATIC

anyways, wow. after getting COMPLETELY AND UTTERLY shown up by newly minted main character Jirou Kyouka, Endeavor got his moment after all. whatever else he may be, he’s a damn good fucking hero. and if anyone deserves to get punched so hard they burst into flames, it’s AFO, so yeah

Chapter 357

what a sassy little birb. like how he now has the sexy soon-to-be scar as well! you are now officially a Todoroki

YOU CAN SHOOT FIRE OUT OF YOUR EYEBALLS NOW?? YOU SHOOT LASERS?? THAT’S JUST A THING THAT YOU DO NOW???

fff Endeavor please don’t die :|!!!!

please zap AFO’s other hand!!! I am getting so freaking anxious right now. he’s either gonna win it all here or else something terrible is about to happen

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

DID HORIKOSHI KNOW??? WHEN HE WAS DRAWING THIS??? THAT IT WAS ACTUALLY GOING TO BE THE SINGLE WORST THING ANYONE HAS EVER DRAWN!??!?!!

OH MY GOD I SCROLLED DOWN AND IT WASN'T ACTUALLY THE END OF THE CHAPTER AHHHHHH. FOR SOME REASON I JUST ASSUMED IT WAS. POSSIBLY BECAUSE ALL I WANT RIGHT NOW IS TO FLING THIS MANGA AWAY FROM ME AND INCINERATE IT WITH A BLOWTORCH

Chapter 358

did TomurAFO really just slap a huge chunk of the iconic U.A. school building to pieces with his disgusting infinityhands all unceremoniously just like that. is nothing sacred anymore. what are you gonna do next?? kill off the most popular character??

“so anyway here’s 1000 words on why me becoming a despot is actually a good thing” dude just shut up and get back to slapping shit already

KACCHAN WENT TO THE SUPPORT COURSE FOR AN UPGRADE?? AND WE WERE DEPRIVED OF THAT ENTIRE INTERACTION?! YOU’RE TELLING ME THAT KACCHAN HAS MET HATSUME MEI AND IT WAS OFFSCREENED?? I am suing this manga for wasting my life

magnificent. inspired. I can’t believe this child is going to be fucking dead like three chapters from now (˘̩̩̩ε˘̩ƪ)

THE PALPABLE FUCKING CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT!!!

FUCK YEAH KACCHAN MAKE THE BAD MAN GO BOOM

Chapter 359

is this dude actually livestreaming the battle

bitch he’s going toe to toe with the final villain while you’re down in the basement making a Tiktok. you are not the same

HIS FUCKING ARM, FUCK ME. FUCK. FUCK!!

his arm is literal splinters right now and all he cares about is that TomurAFO wasn’t impressed with his new cluster move :’’’’) it’s okay. it’s okay this is fine

this is literally Aizawa’s worst nightmare. greatest fear come to life. one of his students is hurt and in danger and he can’t do anything. Shirakumo all over again. Bakugou is about to die right in front of him and he’s so fucking desperate but he can’t do anything

omg. what a goated fucking chapter. Bakugou angst! Aizawa angst!! Aizawa Being Terrified Over An Imminent Threat to Bakugou’s Safety angst!! and to top it all off, “YOU’RE CLOSER TO MIDORIYA IZUKU THAN ANYONE AND THAT’S WHY I’M ABOUT TO MAKE YOU SUFFER” angst. hoooooooooooly shit

Chapter 360

so he’s literally just. torturing him. just fucking around. wow

WHY IS TOMURAFO JUST CONTINUING TO HAVE ALL THE TIME IN THE WORLD TO KEEP ON DOING THIS. WHERE THE FUCK ARE ALL THE REST OF THE HEROES?? FFS, DEKU’S NOT HERE TO THROW A BACKPACK THIS TIME, WHY DOES EVERYONE ELSE FUCKING SUCK SO HARD AT SAVING HIM?!

Studio Bones is gonna have to utilize some sort of AI program to autogenerate these hand things for all their fight scenes. I feel really sorry for that AI and I just hope that it doesn’t somehow develop sentience and take revenge on us all. it would be within its rights to do so

MIRIOOOOOOOO. ACTUAL BEST CHARACTER IN THE SERIES!!! YOU CAN LAUGH AT KACCHAN’S HERO NAME ALL YOU WANT YOU FUCKING STUD. YOU EARNED IT

why was this man not our vanguard. why, when we lost our trump card in the first ten seconds of the fight, did it not occur to a single person that, WELL HEY, SINCE IT LOOKS LIKE THE DEKU THING MIGHT NOT END UP WORKING OUT. WHAT IF WE JUST, YOU KNOW, MIRIO

welp. if anyone needs me. I’ll be in my room crying over fictional characters

Chapter 361

QUICKLY NOW! WHILE HE’S DISTRACTED REMEMBERING HOW HE USED TO BE CUTE AND NOT-EVIL!!

why do I feel like Mirio also got the strange, fleeting impression that he was talking to someone else other than TomurAFO for a moment there? he looks like he’s WEIRDED OUT AS ALL FUCK, but also genuinely sorry for offending him lol

JEANIST IS STANDING UP AND TRYING TO DISTRACT TOMURAFO TO PROTECT KACCHAN, I AM YET AGAIN AWASH IN FEELINGS

I know I sound like a broken record here but Tamaki, not allowed to die, etc. etc. just so we’re clear Horikoshi. I don’t trust you to remember!!

WHAT THE FUCK DID THEY FEED THIS KID BEFORE THEY WENT INTO BATTLE OMFG!!!!!!!

WHAT A TERRIFYING THING TO BEHOLD. I DON’T SEE HOW THIS IS GOING TO DO FUCKALL AGAINST TOMURAFO NO MATTER HOW EXCITED THEY ARE ABOUT IT, BUT EVEN SO, GODDAMN

Chapter 362

oh my GOD WHY DOES MY HEART ALREADY HURT SO MUCH aaaaugh I’m not going to survive this am I. Kacchan we’ll die together

did he already know?! NOBODY FUCKING TOLD ME HE ALREADY KNEW?? HE KNEW HOW IT WOULD END, AND HE WENT WILLINGLY. THE SACRIFICE PLAY, oh my god, my heart is pieces

Jeanist’s eyes are so wide and he’s using his quirk and telling Katsuki to stop. he knows. what tipped you off. was it the “take care of everyone” while standing up with sudden terrifying purpose even though he’s already half-dead. was it that. it was that wasn’t it

I AM SO NOT FINE RIGHT NOW IT’S UNBELIEVABLE

that’s it. it’s over. Horikoshi’s won. it’s all fucking over we never stood a fucking chance in hell

Kacchan’s face, when he’s not scrunching it up in a glare, or a frown, or grinning like a homicidal maniac, never ceases to just effortlessly slip past every last one of my defenses. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, he just looks so freaking young. like the schoolboy he in fact is. far, far too young to be caught up in a war and facing his own imminent death

seeing him like this now, in his own mental landscape, where he’s free to be himself, and seeing how much of a difference it makes in his demeanor almost immediately, just hits me real fucking hard. he was just way too hard on himself. and he never let himself ask for the autograph because he never felt like he fully earned it, and now it’s too late (or so he thinks), and just. guh

Kacchan dying with that much regret in his heart is not fucking okay and I wanna fight a man about it even though it didn’t even actually wind up happening sob

I love, and hate, that every single other hero there actually did try to stop it. they just weren’t fast enough. god

PUTTING HIS PARENTS THERE WAS A DICK MOVE ON HORIKOSHI’S PART. OH HELLO BAKUFAM HOW ARE YOU, AND BY THE WAY, YOUR CHILD JUST DIED. WHAT A TERRIBLE DAY FOR RAIN

[dukeofdelirium]

Can I ask your top 10 fav fics ever (from any fandom, if you don't mind)?

Also, just curious, is there a story behind your name "dukeofdelirium "?

Oh lord. Fav fanfics? Idk if I could even come up with 10.

I don’t really read fanfic that much these days unfortunately, mostly bc I haven’t rlly had time with my current job. I do write fanfic on my AO3 though (but my updating is random bc I work a lot). You can find me on AO3 at dukeofdelirium

I have multiple ongoing fanfics, including a Death Note/lawlight one that I’m writing the 2nd chapter for when I have free time.

As for my all time fav fanfics? Ummmmmmm

1) Genius Is a Curse by Bloodshot Eyes both on ao3 and fanfiction.net.

This is a DN AU where Light never finds the DN. I will say it’s very heavy on mental illness and things like that, and ppl might find the content triggering so I would read with caution if this is the case for you. It’s a fanfic that I still think about to this day and that I’ve reread maybe 5 times in the last 14 yrs. Something about it rlly stuck with me and I still think about it all the time.

2) The Hinterland Doctrine aka Those Who Stand For Nothing Fall For Anything by Halfpromise both on ao3 and fanfiction.net

We all know where we were when this shit dropped lmfao. This is one of the most iconic death note/lawlight fanfics ever written and just so you’re aware, it’s almost 800,000 words. It has its own tv tropes article and everything 😂 I remember reading this fic in highschool and it had me fucked up in all sorts of ways. I’ve been thinking about rereading it bc I haven’t read it in years but I remember how much I loved it. It’s also an AU where Light is a politician, I’m not telling you anything else 🤫

3) motion picture soundtrack by lowlightt on ao3

this author…. This AUTHOR…. Nahhhhhh their writing makes me actually insane I’m serious. Me and my bestie kept sending their fics back and forth in our group chat and we were literally quoting the fics and going crazy until like 4am for multiple nights in a row 😂 see I’ll do it right now. IT’S VIOLENCE, THIS KISS! god that knocks the wind out of me 🤣

4) Drag You Down by chocomd on ao3

This is a Katara x Aang long fic where they break up and eventually get back together. I rlly love this author and I’ve read most of their works. I recommend all their stuff, especially Midnight Meditations and Without Water which are both one shots I believe? Don’t quote me on that tho

The only other fics coming to my mind are fanfics that my friends have written. Like I said, I don’t rlly read too much fanfic these days and when I do read them, I am very selective and picky about it. For a fic to hold my interest and actually be memorable, they rlly have to scratch a highly niche itch in my brain lol. I’ll link some of my besties fanfics if anyone wants to check them out :)

5) Golden Hour by FuelMyDelusions on ao3

This is a Jacob x Bella longfic and a Breaking Dawn rewrite (thank god cuz we all know it needs that) and I’m WAITING FOR BESTIE TO UPDATE 🙄 jk I can’t talk cuz I know she’s waiting for me to update my shit too 😔🤚🏻

6) Aurora - A New Dawn by poizonivory on ao3

This is another twilight Jacob x Bella longfic that is fixing the hot mess that Breaking Dawn aka Smeyer Hell created. I love this fic so much 👹 you’ll catch me in the comments acting weird

Anyway lol, I can’t think of any other fanfics at the moment. Feel free to shoot me other asks if you want, but yeah I don’t rlly read too many fics these days except for what my friends write and stuff that rlly catches my attention.

And to answer your last question, there isn’t any particular story or meaning behind my username. I’ve just had the username for years and so I use it for practically everything. My URL used to be different over a decade ago when I joined tumblr (I was a 100% death note blog at the time) but then I changed it to dukeofdelirium so I’ve kept this username for many years 😋✌🏻

[yuukei-yikes]

can we get uhhhhhh some hibiya thoughts

yes. yes. yes. i fucking love hibiya. he's LITERALLY A LITTLE GUY when i got into kagepro he was one of my faves actually cuz he was the closest to my age at the time. i was 13… im 22 now! lol thats not weird at all *eye twitch* sry ive been weird abt the passage of time lately. erm wait this isnt my therapy session <- doesnt go to therapy

HIBIYA. LITTLE GUY. my thoughts on him………honestly, i recently reread all the novels and god his intro chapters were HARD to read. all the creepy stuff abt hiyori yknow. i was cringing so hard. i kinda wanna ignore it bc i'd rather do that with the weird bits kagepro has to offer, but not to get rid of it completely. like id take away hibiyas whole thing abt a collection of hiyori pics but still keep the aspect of him that worships her. and how that dynamic would COMPLETELY go away post str.

post str hibiya is VERY different from how he started out. i mean. 10 year old timeloop…. he hasn't grown at all mentally like he has to process all this with his 12 year old brain, but going through all he did he just kinda looks at things rly differently now. not obsessed with hiyori, for one…. and she's also different to him. their relationship changes drastically bc now they both respect each other LOL listen i know im annoying with my codependent relationship headcanons but… eyes hibiya and hiyori

these bitches are 12. spent 10 years watching each other die over and over and literally die for each other. AND THEN THEY GET EACH OTHER BACK? ERM. yeah theyre NOT letting go of each other. its not so much codependency as much as it is awful awful awful separation anxiety. god are there any fics of hibiya and hiyori going back home and having a breakdown at having to separate and go to their own houses (bc in the city they were living together so it doesnt hit that they need to separate until they go home)???

hiyori would still be kinda bitchy and bossy but definitely not horrible to hibiya. and also her attitude hits different when she's also always holding his hand and refusing to go anywhere without him and throwing tantrums when any of the dan members even imply any activity that would require to separate them. and she wouldnt rly be embarrassed abt it i think hiyori would be super open and vocal abt HIBIYA HAS TO BE WITH ME ALL THE TIME !!!!!! and hibiya isnt even flustered hes just like *NODDING NODDING NODDING* bc he's the same with her. girl… SEPARATION ANXIETY HIBIHIYO<3 mekadan so sick in the head <3 they have 78 undiagnosed mental illnesses <3

not to make it abt my future headcanons of psych major hibiya but. new generations man. hibiya is 10000% the one in the dan going like GUYS WHAT HAPPENED TO US WAS SOOOO MESSED UP and everyone's like lol yeah !!!! and he's like DONT LOL ABOUT THIS IM FUCKING SERIOUS??? especially since he's such a fucking outsider to everything like everyone else's been experiencing all these tragedies since they were born and he just kinda. had a normal life before? and like i said NEW GENERATIONS MAN THEYRE PSYCHOANALYSING THEMSELVES AND EVERYONE AROUND THEM…. the dan is so used to this shit that they kinda lmao rock and roll thru it and hibiyas like NO. NO. NO. EVERYONE. THERAPY. NOW!!!!!! it becomes his special interest he starts getting all into psychology and when he comes back to the city for his visits suddenly he's diagnosing everyone with stuff and the dans like *shaking* MAKE THE KID SHUT UP also realises he has separation anxiety with hiyori and works on it. hiyori is surprisingly the one most terrified of letting go. and like i said…. 10 year long time loop being processed in a 12/13 year old brain.. hibiya is SUPER self aware. he makes sure of it

ok and. heh. haruka. THE WHOLE HIBIYA HIYORI AND HARUKA THING COULD BE ITS OWN POST… SO… IM LEAVING IT HERE CUZ THIS IS ALREADY SUPER LONG but im just gonna say. hibiya's IN DENIAL of konoha being gone. he keeps expecting haruka to go away. hibiya THINKS he's super mature, and he is for his age bc of all this shit and his willingness to understand his problems and everyone else's. and everyone else also think he is mature, but this is just something he can't stop being a 12 year old about. his friend is gone! WHY does it have to be gone!?!? especially in an ending where hiyori is back. if she wasnt, then he'd be more accepting of the losses bc there were 2 both konoha and hiyori and like it becomes another whole thing abt letting go and mourning but if she is back…everything is supposed to be perfect!! everyone made it back!! why couldn't konoha? why does it have to be gone? its not fair! he doesnt care this haruka was the body's true owner!! konoha was his friend! it also deserved to live as much as this haruka guy!!! why is HE more important!!!?!?!?!? and he just. he's just insanely immature abt it. and he knows he is but truth is he's just really fucking sad and regretful about konoha being gone. i could also talk about hiyori and harukas feelings abt it but heheh yeah this is super long. erm. hibiyita el chiquito <3 hibiya throwing a tantrum in front of the whole dan abt how it isnt fair and how he wishes haruka would just die. LMAO. he is 12. if anyone has fic commissions open Eye eye

also erm wholesome one before i end it. he makes little miniature dolls of the whole dan<3 he's BAD at typing on his new smartphone but since he lives away hes always texting in the gc<3 he gets super into mobile games<3 amongus fan hibiya asking all his grownup friends with jobs and no time for amongus if anyone can play with him<3 they do bc theyre busy but there will always be time to amongus with friends<3

[chattegeorgiana]

Hey I'm the sasusaku fan reading Kaika Sasei. Thank you for the answer I'm looking forward. By the way, can you link here the written version? You have so many chapters written and I wanna know more before reading the manga.

I was hoping you could pick up fan's ideas, wish you could check out inosakutema they're a great trio though. I see that you plan to stay true to Kishimoto and I can pick up on the Temari situation with Sakura in Suna. (Hope it's the clinic!!).

Speaking of the clinic I can't wait to see your version of it. Boruto leaves me wanting for some more head of medical department Sakura. It's so simplified and boring, she's your average healer only when plot needs her and it's so boring only the same jutsu. It's like she ain't the world's strongest kunoichi and its best medical ninja.

I might be a loyal sasusaku but I'm not too hostile on Karin, I think she's really useful as a sensor and her sensory is the best in the world, I don't get how people downplay them. Hopefully you can find a spot for her in Konoha as their leader of Barrier.

I was sad when you didn't give any details about Hanabi. Neji was my favorite character and the only escape to his absence I could find is Hanabi, she's the best in Boruto all things considered (the story is trash). If you follow Kishimoto writing then I can rest assured she will lead her clan like I've been waiting for them to show already.

Hi there! Welcome back! 🤗

So, I have multiple formats for the written version.

I have it pretty much everywhere: my blog in storybook format on chatte-georgiana.com

This post here has a table of contents with all of them: https://chatte-georgiana.com/2020/10/25/kaika-saisei-naruto-au-after-the-war-sakura-haruno-centric/

Then, if you want, depending on what you’re most used to I have it on:

FFnet: https://m.fanfiction.net/s/13771214/1/Kaika-Saisei (this one for some reason ruined some of the formatting and no matter what I try it won’t save the modificatiosn)

AO3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/28149138/chapters/68971716

Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/1063652674-kaika-saisei-chapter-1-every-end-is-a-new

So, depending on what you like most, pick your favorite. 😁

Now to the next part of your question, regarding fan ideas and whatnot… to be honest I try to stay as far away as possible from that because at the end of the day this is the vision I have over her development & I’m writing it based on old theories I had regarding her. Which ironically came true partially and didn’t come true at the same time. It’s like Schroedinger’s cat situation lol.

From what you’re telling me there’s plenty of that in the original series though? Like I said, I’m trying my best to stay as far away from it, although I will have a certain reference to it at some point in the story. But that’ll come when it’ll come and that’s all I’m going to say about it cuz I don’t want to spoil. 😁

Of course there might be certain similarities to original due to the fact that certain things have been discussed in the fandom prior to the ending, so what the publisher did was take those ideas and put them into the actual story, lol. It’s more than clear at this point they’re scanning the fandom for ideas. But anyway, moving in from that….

As for the writing, yeah, I’m trying to stay as close as possible to Kishimoto’s writing though. I’m sure you’ll enjoy the Sakura/Temari thing I have in mind because in a way it’s not very far from what you’re telling me, it’s just that it’s maybe a different angle, let’s say.

As for the clinic, I’m sure you’ll enjoy it purely from the angle of Sakura being highly underutilized in OG material.

Like trust me, I tried giving Boruto a chance even if I was mad at the ending. I said ok, if the writing is good then I’ll give it a chance because at the end of the day, I can appreciate something good even if it’s not my preferred taste. But sadly, the way the franchise treats her it’s just lamentable, imo.

Medical ninjutsu used to be so much fun & intricate, but OG material just stuck to its ever used green aura type of thing and that’s it.

That’s precisely why in Kaika I did my best to try and give it the respect it deserves. Ofc, I might not do it 100% okay either, but at least I’ll try my best to go past the green glow. 🤷‍♀️

As for Karin, buckle up and think if this is going to be or not an impediment to you because as I said, this is going to be SK story in the end as well, not just NS. As I’ve said, I’m a big fan of the symbolism & mirroring Kishi did with them, so I’m planning on playing that out in Kaika as well.

I can understand how that might not be someone’s cup of tea, but I’ve always been real about what this story will be in terms of pairings.

As for her & Konoha sensory, well, I have let’s say other plans. At the moment Karin is very well focused on discovering more about her Uzumaki roots. And that’s all I will say for now. 👀

As for Hanabi, sorry, must’ve escaped my mind. In Kaika she’s currently the heiress of the Hyuga and as you’ll see from the written version, there’s some subplot involving her, a treasured Hyuga secret & the complications of being the heiress & having access to such a secret and trying to mend the relationship with her sister. But anyway, read the written version and you’ll see for yourself.

And as I said, in Kaika, Neji Hyuga will be brought back to the cast. 👀

As for the details of how that’ll happen, all I can say is just to follow the story. 👀🤭

Anyway, thanks once again for your interest in Kaika. Highly appreciated! 🙏 Hope you enjoy the written version! 😊

[voidposter86]

As it says, this is just to get Stuff Out the Brain. Nothing Else. Brain Vomit if you will.

Anyway.

There has been little talk about the new chapter of Blue Exorcist and while shit is going down, we still haven't seen the main crew we saw get BLASTED last chapter.

I have quite bit to saaayyyyy soooooo read if you want.

(The Tags are also important once you read...if you care lol)

I think the most important take away here is this scene:

(Rin, you are dealing with such a big identity crisis, get some support please;;)

While obviously it's important that we the reader understand the context behind Rin's connection here with himself-

I think it's interesting that the scene it's referencing is one that specifically Yukio had narrowly missed, and on purpose.

I think is important, because even during their following fight, when Yukio brings up the point that Rin hasn't relied on him (as a point of hypocrisy) thus far...Rin's thoughts go to:

His own struggles with his "demon half" (for simplicity).

To cut to the chase here a bit, I definitely think that Rin is going to have Issues with himself after this.

I think that, with the current trajectory, Yukio will probably by acting as a linchpin here for Rin.

For a variety of reasons:

In particular, Yukio's reaction to Rin in his True Form is distinctively different from the others:

There are so many bits and pieces throughout about their relationship, and with these new developments it CAN be reestablished on fresh ground. Obviously they care about each other, but that worked against them due to everything else surrounding them since they were kids. Needs a bit of work and that's okay! The point being that- This is the prime chance to show how much they have grown from all the shit they've been put through, in an effort to actually have each other's backs, get along, be good brothers.

Rin understands Yukio.

Now Yukio needs to understand Rin.

on a deeper level, they know each other very already, you get what I mean here

Rin being the one to open up about this to Yukio would perhaps be the way to go....I can't really say how this'll come about cuz I am evidently no writer lmfao

However, I see the pieces and I wait with baited breath to see them put together before me.

[crowhyun]

AHH HI CROW anon that sent the paragraph from before <3 if u take emoji anons i would love to be 🦆 cuz i honestly think ducks suit me the best 💪 ANYWAYS I WAS NOT EXPECTING U TO POST THE NEXT CHAPTER RIGHT AFTER I SEMT THAT BRO I MIGHTVE SCREAMED?!?! 🥹 IM SO HONORED AND FLATTERED AND GLAD I COULD GIVE U SOME MOTIVATION BAE AGHH U WROTE IT SO WELL 😭🫶 BUT. AT THE SAME TIME IM GONNA CRY THIS CLIFFHANGER IS EATING ME UP WHATHRKF WHY WHYWHWY WOULD U DO THIS TO ME 💔💔💔 lord i hope yn will be okay CMON BEOMGYU OR TYUN OR SOOB USE UR OVERPOWERED SKILLS OR SMN IVE BEEN WAITING FOR MY OCTOGYU CONTENT (or was it tyun that had the tentacle chara? i lowkey forgot oop) !!!!! ☹️ and pls their bantering on the boat was making me giggle 💀 soob is so sassy and protective i truly love him but at the same time my love for yeonjun grows every chapter I CANNOT DECIDE WHO I SHIP YN WITH ☹️ soob is still #1 for now HSHDJ‼️‼️ chap 11 is gonna be wild i have a feeling ☹️

ALSO HAPPY VALENTINES ! I HOPE UR DAY WAS WELL?!?! :0

YES OFC I TAKE EMOJI ANONS AHHH IVE BEEN WANTING A NEW EMOJI ANON :(((

and i love ducks so yes ofc you can be duck anon (i'm on my laptop, so i dont have the emoji T.T) 🦆 nvm i just copy pasted it lol

when you had sent me that first ask i was like "well shit this is rlly something, I'm gonna finish the whole chapter now" and i wrote more in one night than i've written in the past few months T.T so thank you so much i absolutely love long messages, they give me so much motivation and willpower

and sorry anon (actually not sorry, i love to torture yall <3) cliffhangers make every more JUICY HEHEHEH

but no fr, i'm planning the story out as i write it and im seriously like damn...soobin or yeonjun? soobin or yeonjun??? and i'm just writing out how everyones relationship is progressing through the story and like...sigh. yn and yeonjun have that dynamic that I love so far, but yn and soobin have the history and trust built through going through sm already together yk? but it'll all come to a closure one day, so I guess we'll both see together lololol

im actually going to start writing chapter 11 today, so hopefully I can get it done soon!

(also my valentines was just okay like usually lol but my mom got me a teddy bear and some chocolates! I hope ur valentines day was well too!)

[macawritesupdates]

Ahh loved the new Yuuji files chapter so so much it was the best one yet! Opening up with summer camp and gojo immediately falling prey to his own hubris was great I was super concerned about that mascot for a moment I was worried it would end up being the death god. Poor Yuuji he's got so much experience he's in his element but no one wants to listen to his advice. I'm not very outdoorsy myself but a good half of my family is and I know from them how easy it is to get hurt if you fuck around. There are multiple eagle scouts in my family who'd have some things to say to all the kids about how foolish they were on the river. Thank goodness Yuuji was a good person and willing to literally jump in to help cuz that could've been a disaster I'm not convinced the Kyoto kids would have survived on their own. Especially since if they had gone without Yuuji they might have ended up in the death gods territory without any way out just like all those other people. Damn Sukuna should realize Yuuji is entirely incapable of sitting by while others meet their doom by now. The death god was so creepy and cool I feel bad for him but also scared coz he wants to do good things and is currently a victim but he's also crazy powerful and beings like can so easily destroy little fragile humans or even just ruin our lives without thinking. Going together into the afterlife to fight God together is incredible good for them. The true forms were excellent Yuuji getting to appreciate his boyfriends true form was lovely and everyone seemed so cool. I'm so glad Yuuji got to kill a god that was awesome. I wonder how Susumu will feel about that. Little sun god Yuuji I love it. I had a headcannon that Yuuji was descended from Ame-no-Uzume-no-Mikoto the goddess who lured Amaterasu from a cave by dancing. In my head cannon the two goddess had a kid who could have been a god himself but he fell for a mortal woman and became human to be with her. The families pink hair comes from the dawn goddess and their gold eyes from Amaterasu. This was just me making fun little theories based on the hints you'd sprinkled in. Anyways love Yuuji being a little sun demigod good for him. Anyways I love Yuuji just casually being himself immediately forgiving rude behavior and making friends with a god as though it were no big deal. The death God's regret that he didn't take more time to get to know Yuuji was cute actually I don't think he's got much to worry about on that end though because he's going to be so busy that one human lifetime will pass in a flash and then he'll have plenty of time to hang with his new friend. Mai and Muta staying behind oh it hurts but it's also so so good! Mai will probably have a great time once she gets used to things she'll be honored as a hero in a God's court and she's so powerful now it's the complete opposite of her life with her old clan. I hope she becomes his right hand woman and achieves great things living a legendary life. Yuuji saying he's not trying to redeem Sukuna but he wants to be in the same purgatory one day damn. I could wax poetic about that forever actually. It's the love and acceptance ok. It's saying I can't save you from the consequences of your own actions but I still won't leave you alone. I will sit with you in hell. Sukuna's well hidden fear of hell too that was great. Ugh it was just a perfect chapter and you brought Toji back I can't wait to see where that goes. I still have more to say lol there's so much good stuff in this one but this comment is already getting long so I'll probably be back in your inbox later with another one haha. Until then thank you so much for writing and sharing with us!!

Thank you ; w ; I was nervous about this one as it has a lot of weird worldbuilding, much like the last fic, and always hit or miss if people enjoy that or not...I just like writing more epic action stories sometimes with more of the world/action ; w ; The death god has been planned for a LONG time, since dropping hints as the ending of this series of fic, the second to last curse, is so contingent on Yuuji having done something BIG that is shaking things up.

Mai and Muta had such sad deaths in the manga, like just always felt they had so much awfulness happen and never got anything to show for it. I like my angst, but I feel if there isn't hope, if there isn't any good payoff, then that death wasn't just, as Yuuji would say. Here, they choose to stay, but it is for reasons of seeking out a better path, not "dead" as much as "Living it up in the god court" ...so they can come back for plot reasons later *coughs* *coughs*

Sukuna making himself into twenty finger cursed objects to maybe be reincarnating instead of dying speaks to me that he does NOT want to die and may have a fear of what comes next, but that's just my headcanon I'm putting in here hehe.... as for the cave incident with a certain sun goddess...mmm....there is a connection there hehe!

I feel it is important for Sukita that Yuuji does NOT just handwave Sukuna being awful, but has an acceptance of it but full send, knows karma has to make this bastard boy pay for it all c: He might become better, do better, but it doesn't erase the past. There is a price to pay, one way or another.

Also Toji coming back was literally the whole reason this chapter exists. I wanted to bring him back. I stared to build the idea they somehow get him back from the afterlife. This chapter was always about bringing Toji back as the funny surprised twist from the day I started writing this fic XD Goes to show you how an idea can really morph over the course of a story!

Thank you as always for the wonderful comment!

[photogirl894]

"Sun and Rain"

Chapter 47

"Whatever It Takes"

A "Bad Batch" fanfic!

Pairing: Hunter x fem OC, Echo (more best friend pairing)

A/N: For one, I apologize for the cliffhanger on the last chapter 😅

Second, a new character you'll meet in this chapter is the female OC of my good friend, @l-lend ! (Do NOT read this chapter, K, if you haven't caught up yet!! 😝😝 lol) I've included her OC as a way of saying thank you to her for a couple of story ideas she tossed around with me that I'll be incorporating over the next couple chapters! I can't say what they are yet cuz *spoilers* 😜 I can only hope I do her character justice!

Hope you all enjoy this!

Taglist: @the-sad-batch , @nimata-beroya , @intrepidmare , @tmntchick677 , @tech-aficionado , @ladykatakuri , @d1n0-dan , @sammi9498 , @darthzero22 , @scarlettroseog , @tech-deck , @thebadbatchscyare , @chxpsi , @ilikemymendarkandfictional , @4pplecider , @locitapurplepink

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Explanation: The Bad Batch have suddenly and mysteriously gone missing and only Kimber remains. Now, it's up to her, Captain Rex and Commander Cody to figure out how to find them and get them back...which prompts Kimber to reach out to someone unexpected for help.

No...no, this couldn't be happening.

It couldn't be.

Rex had just told her that her friends were missing.

Kimber had just returned to her squad; they were finally back together after several months...

...and now, she'd lost them again.

"No...no, that can't be...! Rex, tell me you're lying. Tell me that's not true!" she pleaded.

Rex couldn't hide the guilt in his expression, no matter how much he wanted to. "I wish I could, Kimber, but it's true. It looks like they've been captured."

Her breathing grew short and rapid and she clutched at the sides of her head in a panic, leaning over the edge of the med bay bed she was sitting on. How did this happen? This couldn't be real. This wasn't fair!

She was alone, her squad was gone.

Hunter was gone.

This was her nightmares coming true.

"How could this have happened? Who could've done this?" she asked, her voice trembling in fear.

"We...actually might have a hunch about that," said Cody.

Her head shot up at hearing that and she gaped at Cody expectantly.

Then he went on to say, "We don't have much to go on right now, but...there have been groups of Clones going missing recently...and it seems like Clone Force 99 are the latest victims of these disappearances."

Something about those words sparked another memory in her mind from back on Zeffo and her gaze found Rex's.

"You warned Hunter and Echo about this. I heard you say something to them on Zeffo," she pointed out.

With a nod, he said, "Yes, I did. I thought your squad could help investigate if more Clones kept going missing, but I didn't imagine they would get taken, too."

"Wait...what about Jesse and his group?" she then asked, her fear spiking again as she remembered they had left before she and the Bad Batch.

"Fortunately, he and his group got away," he reassured her.

Kimber let out a quick sigh of relief knowing Jesse made it out okay. Then she told them, "Whoever it was that took my friends, they were waiting for us." The Captain and Commander gave her curious glances and she clarified, "We hadn't gotten far from the planet when a ship suddenly came up on the sensors out of nowhere. Echo said the only ship that could do that was a stealth ship with cloaking technology. They knew we were coming."

"But why would they only target Clone Force 99?" asked Cody, looking at Rex.

"The bigger question is: how did the kidnappers know where they were?" Rex asked in return. "They had to have been tracking them somehow."

Those same questions were running through Kimber's mind, too. How would the kidnappers have known where they would be, especially when that information wasn't made public? Furthermore, if they were specifically targeting the Bad Batch, how did they know which ship was theirs? That wasn't exactly public knowledge either, even to other Clones in the Grand Army of the Republic. Someone had to have told the kidnappers which ship to watch out for, but she knew none of the 501st Clones would do that. That only left the archeologists and most of them were either injured or being checked out by the med team.

That is...everyone except....

"Alden," she spoke.

It had to be him. The young archeologist had been near the Marauder just before their departure. What she thought had been innocent curiosity was starting to seem like a lie.

"What?" asked Cody in response.

Kimber jumped up from the bed and inquired, "Where is Alden, the young archeologist? He told me he was coming with the last group on this cruiser."

Still a bit confused about why she was asking about the young man, Rex answered, "He's two rooms down waiting to be checked."

Immediately, Kimber angrily stomped her way to the doors of the room, not even waiting for the other two, despite them calling after her. The doors swished open and she walked briskly and determinedly down the hall, her focus on the appropriate door. Her boys were missing and the evidence pointed to Alden having something to do with it. She was going to get answers from him one way or another. When she got two rooms down, she turned into the doorway and the doors opened, revealing Alden sitting on the bed in the room and his eyes widened at seeing her glaring at him as she strode in.

"You!" she growled at him, all reason leaving her mind now that he was in her sights. In one swift motion, she grabbed him by the collar of his jacket with both hands, yanked him up from the bed and slammed him into the wall, eliciting a startled cry from him. "What did you do?!" she yelled in his face. "You said you weren't snooping around, but that was a lie, wasn't it? You did something to our ship and now, my squad is gone!"

Right then, she felt a pair of arms grab her from underneath hers and forcefully pull her off of Alden, who was staring at her with eyes large with fear.

"Kimber, stand down!" cried Rex, who had grabbed her and was holding her back.

Cody came into her view and chided her, "We still have protocols to follow and interrogating a civilian with force is not one of them."

"I don't give a damn about protocol," she spat back. "My squad is missing and I'm going to do whatever it takes to find them, starting with him." She cast Alden a death glare.

He yelped in fright and suddenly cried, "All right, I'll talk! I'll tell you what you what you want to know!"

Both Rex and Cody exchanged astonished glances and Kimber had to really hold back from saying "I told you so" to her intimidation method working on getting Alden to talk. When she felt Rex's grip on her slacken, she pulled away from him and went back in front of Alden, who whimpered ever so slightly at her staring him down.

Stopping in front of the scared boy, she then told him, her voice darker than even she recognized, "You better tell us everything you know, boy, or so help me, I will take you back to Zeffo myself and bury you back in that cave where we found you!"

Alden cried out in alarm in response to her threat and then added, "I didn't know they wanted your squad, I swear!"

"What did they want...and who is 'they'?" she demanded.

The young man gulped nervously. "I...I was an archeological intern and I was hoping to work with Master Cordova on his latest expedition to Zeffo. I was approached by someone who told me they could make it happen if I did something for them in return."

"Who was it?" asked Cody as he and Rex came up behind Kimber on either side.

Alden shook his head. "I don't know. He never gave me a name."

Frustrated with that answer, Kimber turned her back to Alden and walked away a couple steps. So far, his information wasn't getting them anywhere.

"What did he tell you to do?" Rex questioned him.

"He...the man told me they needed to catch certain people and they were going to stage an attack on Zeffo to bring those people there, but I didn't know what kind of attack," Alden explained. "He told me that once we got out to...to...."

Impatiently, Kimber whipped back around and asked, "To what?"

Flinching, Alden blurted out, "To put a tracker on a lone shuttle!"

Rex turned and saw Kimber's jaw and fists clenching in anger, so he held up a hand and warned her, "Kimber, stay calm."

She heard him, but didn't acknowledge him. Instead, keeping her eyes trained on Alden, she hissed at him, "You're telling me...that you sold out my friends...just so you could go on a digging trip to Zeffo?!" Instinctively, she took a step forward, but Rex blocked her way, holding his hand up higher to keep her back.

"I'm sorry!" Alden cried.

"What did that man want with Clone Force 99?" she then asked, her voice still raised.

"He never told me it was them; he never even said they were Clones," he replied, "so I don't know the reason why. I swear, that's all I know. Please...I'm really sorry, ma'am. I made a mistake. I had no idea they were going to take your squad and I regret my part in all of this."

Kimber knew if she stayed in that room a moment longer, she was going to pummel the young man to unconsciousness, so she abruptly turned on her heel and stormed out of the room back out into the hall, not even giving Alden any indication that she accepted his apology. Her squad was gone because he wanted to go on an expedition and he sold them out to someone without even asking why. How stupid could this boy be? She could feel her rage growing exponentially mixed with her worry for her boys. Why had they been taken? All she could do was hope they were okay, wherever they were.

Behind her, she heard Cody and Rex's footsteps following her. After moving a few feet away from the room, she stopped and turned back to face them.

"We're not any closer to figuring this out than we were moments ago," she commented to them in frustration, folding her arms across her chest.

Rex responded, "It seems that the kidnappers wanted the Bad Batch, but since you were left behind, it confirms they are specifically targeting Clones."

"They knew an attack like the one on Zeffo would not only bring Clones in general to the planet, but it would be a mission suited for Clone Force 99," added Cody, "which means whoever is behind this are familiar with them and what they do."

"I would imagine that's not a very wide circle of people," said Kimber.

"No," Cody confirmed. "Apart from you, there really isn't anyone outside the Grand Army of the Republic that would know about them. At least, to our knowledge."

Kimber ran a hand over her face and up into her hair anxiously. If anyone outside the Grand Army knew about the Bad Batch, it would be next to impossible to figure out who it could be, considering there were millions of people in the galaxy.

Though, she then had a thought and voiced it aloud, "Well, whoever took my boys, they had a ship armed with cloaking technology and a large ion cannon. My guess is they must be people that come from wealth or have a rich benefactor because I'd imagine a ship of that make would not be cheap."

"That's a fair point," said Rex.

"Either that or they have connections in the black market or a criminal underworld somewhere that would get them such technology," Cody also put in.

Hearing him mention the black market and criminal underworld made Kimber freeze briefly as a thought came to her mind. One she hadn't considered until just then and one she hadn't thought about in months.

"If that's the case...then I may have a contact of my own that could help," she told the two Clones.

The two of them glanced at her and tilted their heads, bemused.

"You have a contact in the black market?" questioned Cody.

She shrugged and bobbed her head. "Not necessarily in the black market, but I know someone who has their ear to the ground in the more shady parts of the galaxy. Or they might know other people who do."

"Where is this contact of yours?" Rex inquired.

"I met them on Jakku a couple months back," Kimber answered. "I can see if they've heard anything regarding shady deals on the market for stealth technology or even just about the disappearing Clones in general."

Rex and Cody turned to each other in thought.

"We have to start somewhere, Cody. It's better than nothing," said Rex.

Cody seemed to contemplate the suggestion for a moment and then stated, "All right, then. Call your contact and see what you can get from them."

"I'm sure they'll actually want to meet in person," said Kimber. "As far as I'm aware, they're still on Jakku, but I'll comm them and get their location. I'll let you know what I find out."

Cody gave her a nod of approval and proceeded to walk away, leaving Rex and Kimber alone in the hall.

Looking to her, he asked, "Are you all right? Your actions back there...that wasn't like you."

With a mildly guilty look in her eyes, she said back, "I know. I'm not myself. I'm just overwhelmed with worry and anger at what that boy did. I let those emotions get the best of me."

"It's not uncommon," he said. "When we were going to rescue Echo from Skako Minor, I reacted with anger at one time and that's something I rarely do."

"What happened?" she asked.

"Crosshair had made some remarks about Echo that I didn't appreciate, so...I punched him. Twice."

"Knowing him, he probably deserved it."

"Emotional reactions happen to the best of us. Though, maybe just reign it in a bit next time," he politely warned her.

She nodded. "I will."

He gazed at her a little longer, his eyes emanating with remorse as he then said to her, "Kimber, before you go, I uh...I found something in the cabin of the Marauder when we picked you up. I get the feeling you might want to hold onto it."

He gingerly reached into a pouch on his belt and pulled out something enclosed in his hand. When he unfurled his fingers and revealed what he had, Kimber gasped softly and shakily.

It was Hunter's credit necklace.

In shock, she gradually reached down and took the necklace from Rex's hand, fighting the tears she could feel wanting to fall from her eyes. "This...is Hunter's," she said in a strained voice.

Silently, she nodded, keeping her eyes on the credit in her hand. "I love him, Rex," she then told him emotionally. "I hurt him when I left and now, I may have lost my chance to make things right. If anything happens to him or any of them...!"

"You two were...together, weren't you?" he then asked her. Though, from his tone, she judged he already knew the answer.

He laid a hand on her shoulder. "Hey...we'll find him, Kimber. I promise you," he consoled her. "We'll find the boys and bring them home."

She took a slow, deep breath to calm herself down and then lifted her head to meet his gaze. "We'll bring all the Clones home," she said with steadfastness.

Rex gave her an encouraging grin and nodded. "You'd better go make that call."

With that, he too walked away from her and left her on her own. Kimber once again looked down at Hunter's necklace lying in her palm and she ran her thumb gently over the credit. Rex had said he'd found it in the cabin of the Marauder...which means Hunter must have had it with him when they were attacked. He'd kept it with him like he used to. Though was it for his original reason or the reason he'd said when he'd given it to her; to fight for her and a future with her? There was no way to know now. She debated putting it on, but...it wouldn't feel right. Not when she didn't know where she stood with Hunter at the moment. No...she would only wear it if he chose to give it to her again. Until that time, she would do what he did and just carry it with her.

It would give her the motivation to do whatever it took to get her family back.

Pocketing the necklace in one of her pouches, she returned to the room she'd awoken in and found her pack in a corner on the floor. She fished around inside it until she pulled out a black holopad, one she hadn't needed to use until now.

She activated it and waited for the other person to answer. A few seconds passed and then a holographic female figure appeared.

The woman snickered upon seeing her. "Well...Kimber Sallaros. I wondered when I'd hear from you," she greeted her.

"As much I'd love to go through pleasantries, Rina, I don't have that kind of time. I need your help," Kimber said in return.

"Ah, quick to the point. It's gonna be one of those calls," commented Rina. "All right, then. What do you need?"

"What I need is information, but it probably isn't safe to speak of over comms. Are you still on Jakku?"

"Nah, I ditched that place. I was getting bored there. I'm on Balmorra now."

Kimber couldn't help but feel a little relieved at hearing that. Jakku was clear on the other side of the galaxy than where she was and it would take days to travel there. Balmorra was a lot closer, though it would still take some time to get there.

Time she hoped the Bad Batch still had.

"Isn't Balmorra part of the Confederacy of Independent Systems now?" she questioned.

With a shrug, Rina answered, "I mean, yeah, but it's still a good place for me to lay low. Where have you landed?" she then asked.

"Currently, I'm just in space on a cruiser. Though, we were just on Zeffo," Kimber answered.

Rina crinkled her face. "What would make you go to Zeffo?"

"It's a long story, one I can't tell right now because time is not my ally at the moment. Can you help me or not?" Kimber replied, a little irritated.

"No need to get your blacks in a twist. I can help. If you want information, it'd be best to meet in person." Rina pulled out a datapad and typed something into it. "Come to these coordinates. You'll know how to find me."

"Copy that. I'll let you know when we reach the planet. Thanks, Rina."

"I'll be waiting."

Kimber ended the call and let out a sharp exhale. It was going to be interesting to see how this meeting was going to go.

Then she activated her comm, put in Rex's frequency and spoke into it, "Rex, I've got a location for my contact. Tell Commander Cody to set a course for Balmorra."

"Copy that, Kimber," Rex replied.

Kimber reached back into her pouch and pulled out Hunter's necklace again, her thoughts drifting to him and his brothers once more. She hoped they were okay. She hoped they were still alive and would be even after traveling to Balmorra.

She closed her hand around the necklace and reverently pressed it to her lips. "I'm coming, lads. I'm going to find you and bring you home if it's the last thing I do. Just please stay alive until I get there."

It took a couple of days for them to reach Balmorra, having to go from the Outer Rim all the way back to the Colonies, just outside the Core Worlds. Since it was a planet aligned with the Confederacy of Independent Systems, Cody and Rex agreed it would be best for Kimber not to go alone. For her safety, Rex would accompany her planetside to meet with Rina. They both ditched their official Republic armor, as well, to remain inconspicuous and to ensure it didn't catch the eyes of any enemies. Kimber got her civilian clothes from the Marauder, which was now docked inside the hangar of the cruiser, and Rex donned some gray armor with jaig eyes on the chest with a matching helmet cap as well as goggles. They both had blasters still strapped to their sides in the event they needed to defend themselves.

Once they were ready to go, Rex flew the both of them down to the planet in a Y-wing fighter. Balmorra seemed pretty gray in its architecture, but the light of the sun at least gave it a little more color. They landed a few clicks outside of the city Rina's coordinates were located so as to not attract any attention. Kimber sent a signal to Rina to alert her that they were on the planet and heading her way.

As they made their way into the city, Rex asked Kimber, "So how did you meet this Rina woman?"

She told him, "A couple months ago, I'd gone with Jesse and some of the 501st on a supply mission to Jakku that went slightly awry when some thugs went around trying to steal people's parts, including ours. Rina was there and she also helped deal with them. She was quite a fighter and she told me she was impressed with my skills, as well. Afterwards, she bought me a drink and we conversed while the lads finished getting supplies. It turns out she's on the run, but she wouldn't say from who or what. She informed me if I ever either changed my mind about working with Clones or I needed any help in the future to comm her."

"Why would she think you'd change your mind about working with Clones?" was his next question.

She shrugged. "She said something along the lines of if I wanted to 'stop being an armor chaser and have a group of my own fighters'."

Rex gave her a curious glance. "Armor chaser?" he repeated.

"Her way of describing me working with soldiers or Clones," she clarified.

He nodded. "Sounds like she was trying to recruit you to something."

"Whatever it was, I have no interest in having a group of my own," she told him. "I have the Bad Batch and I also had Jesse, Kix and the 501st at the time. I'm not a leader."

"I'd beg to differ. I think you'd make a great leader," he countered.

Kimber scoffed in amusement. "I appreciate the confidence, Rex, but that's just not in the cards for me." Then she went on to say, "I've never seen this gray armor you're wearing before."

"I don't use it often," Rex answered. "The last time I wore it was on a mission to Onderon to train some local fighters trying to reclaim their government."

She looked him over once and then stated, "I definitely like your normal armor better."

"Believe me, so do I," he replied.

They continued walking through the city, keeping their heads down and avoiding eye contact with the locals. Kimber kept alert, waiting for the sign from Rina.

"How are we supposed to find this Rina? She said you'd know how to find her," said Rex.

"I do," said Kimber, "I'm just waiting for--"

Then it hit her...a citrussy flood to her nasal passages.

"There you are," she thought. "You smell that?" she asked Rex.

He inhaled a bit and replied, "Yeah, I do. Smells like smoke, but it also has a hint of citrus to it."

Kimber smirked slightly. "Yep, that's her. She's a smoker, told me she wanted to quit, but...clearly, it looks like that's not happening."

"Clearly," Rex repeated as they followed the scent.

They followed the trail of the smoke further ahead and into an alleyway, where they saw a shorter young woman standing in the middle of the alley leaning on the right wall, one foot propped up against it. As they got closer, they saw she had silver hair that was short, but just long enough to be pulled back into a small bun, and bangs that framed her face. She was fair-skinned and wore simple gray clothes. She lifted a vape mod to her mouth for a few seconds as she inhaled and then slowly breathed out a cloud of wispy white smoke, keeping her eyes up on the opposite wall.

"Still an armor chaser, I see, eh Kimber?" the woman asked, a light rasp to her velvety voice.

Both Kimber and Rex exchanged glances. This was definitely Rina, though how she knew it was Kimber and that she was with a soldier without even looking at them was unclear.

Kimber responded in kind while they walked, "Still hitting the mod, I see, Rina?"

"Yeah, quitting ain't as easy as I thought. Just can't beat this stuff, you know?" Then Rina turned to look at them with a devious smirk on her face, piercing blue eyes catching the light even within the shadows of the alley. "I guess you're not here to accept my offer, are you?"

"Not this time, I'm afraid," replied Kimber as she and Rex approached her.

Gesturing with her head to the Captain, Rina inquired, "Who's the stiff?"

Rex's eyes widened, baffled at her manner of speaking.

"This is my friend, Captain Rex," Kimber introduced him. "He's here as my protection. Rex, this is Rina Caska."

He gave her a nod. "Ma'am," he simply said.

She startled him by scoffing and saying through a small laugh, "Ma'am? Wow, you're too well-mannered for my taste."

He said nothing, too taken aback by her response.

She took another drag of her vape mod and blew a puff of smoke up right at Rex's face. "Though, you're a definitely a looker, for sure," she said with a grin as he coughed and waved the smoke away.

"Cut that out, Rina," urged Kimber, pushing Rina's hand with the mod down.

"Whatever you say, boss lady," replied Rina, turning away. "If you two will follow me, I'll take you to my humble abode and you can meet the rest of the team."

"Team? What team?" questioned Kimber, but she didn't get a response.

She and Rex walked after Rina down to the end of the alley and made a couple turns afterwards down some darker streets. Soon, they came into a little hole in the wall place with a door that had a control panel on the outside. Rina pressed a button on the outside and they heard the locks retract inside just before the door slid open. With that, Rina stepped inside with Kimber and Rex behind her.

The inside of the house was pretty run-down yet ordinary. There was simple furniture off to the left in one room and in front of them in what appeared to be the dining area. Though, there were bright lights coming from a back room just up ahead.

"Girls, they're here!" Rina called out as they walked into the back room.

Kimber and Rex turned the corner into the room to find three more female figures inside: a Pantoran leaning against the left wall with a drink in her hand, a Zabrak casually lounging across a sofa on the opposite side of the room fiddling with a vibroblade and then a Togruta sitting in front of a vast array of computer screens between them.

Pointing to each woman from left to right, Rina introduced them, "This is Kida Firestar, Irys Montari and Lex Valen. Ladies, this is Kimber Sallaros and her friend, Captain Rex." Then she turned to the other two, held her arms out to her sides invitingly and declared, "Welcome to our headquarters. Now...how can we help?"

[sei-hoe]

manager pt. 5

hello all! as always thank you for your love on this story.  i hope you like this new chapter! leave me a comment, i love reading your thirsty thoughts! also i recently remembered that shiratorizawa is a dorm school lol, so from now on i will write it as such oopsie. also!! i got all official and made a banner for this series, im so official!

Fem Reader X Tendou Satori & Fem Reader x Ushijima Wakatoshi

CW: blowjob, angst, jealous themes, manipulative reader, language, implied sex, spit kink

WC: 2.6k

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5

Clingy. That was the word you would use to describe Tendou as of late.  During school he was walking with you in the hallways, during practice he was standing next to you, after practice he was walking you to your room.  It wasn’t necessarily annoying, just strange.  His change in behavior was sudden and unprompted, at least in your mind.  

You had been the Shiratorizawa volleyball club manager for about a month now and your outlook had changed drastically.  What used to feel awkward was now second nature.  You used to flinch at what now was commonplace.  Being “used” wasn’t what it used to be.  Now it was something you looked forward to at the end of practice and you had actually become...dare you say it...friends with these guys.  Friends with extreme benefits that is.

But still, Tendou was different.  You’d catch him staring at you in a way that was different from the other guys.  You’d catch him staring as Ushijima would carry you out of the gym on his back and straight to the locker room.  He’d have a look that you used to not be able to identify in his eyes, you knew now it was jealousy.  It was the same look that you’d found on Ushijima’s face about a month ago.  

From Tendou’s perspective, it seemed as though Ushijima was hogging you, whisking you away after practice day in and day out.  You would always walk out of the locker room with wet hair and another one of Ushijima’s shirts on.  It was infuriating and just wasn’t fair.  Tendou had barely been able to talk to you recently, hence his rather clingy behavior.  But you were in heaven.  You were in Ushijima’s presence daily and were able to care for him how he deserved.  However, he had made it very clear that you were not his girlfriend as he didn’t have the time for such a commitment.  Another price you were willing to pay.

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Another grueling practice ended a little bit later than usual, you noted the dark sky through the windows towards the top of the gym walls.  You were working on a bit of homework when the final whistle was blown signifying the official end of practice.  You stood up and began packing up your bag as the team approached the bench for a meeting.  Tendou was the first to arrive by the bench, coming up behind you for a hug, wrapping his arms around your upper stomach and resting his chin on your head.  His chest felt hot and sweaty against your back, instantly raising your body temperature.  You giggled, knowing exactly which sweaty athlete this was.  You and Tendou had become quite close, despite spending less time with him sexually, at least, during the last month.  It seemed as though you were never really alone anymore and Tendou was always around you.  It was nice, he had become a great friend to you.  The two of you were always flirting back and forth and unlike Ushijima, it seemed as though Tendou really cared about you, both emotionally and physically.  He always made sure you came before him and that you were alright after one of your umm...managerial obligations, whereas Ushijima didn’t care if you came at all.  Long story short, you always enjoyed the time you spent with Tendou.  

A few words were said per the usual by the captain and practice was dismissed.  Tendou, still holding onto you from behind, moved his hand further down to your lower stomach, began rubbing gently, and craned his neck down to whisper in your ear, “ya wanna get outta here?”.  You could hear the smirk behind his words as his hot breath blew against your ear.

“Mhm”, you murmured eagerly, missing your time with Tendou.

“Good”, he hummed in response, “because there’s something I’d like to give ya,” He accentuated his dirty talk by moving his hand even lower, “right here.” To say you had butterflies was an understatement.  It was crazy what a couple of words could reduce you to, but here you were.  

You walked back over to the bench to pick up your bag, but was intercepted by Ushijima who had a proposition.  

“Come back with me to my room”, he offered, stepping close enough to make you crane your neck up.  You looked behind you at Tendou, he was laughing with Semi, unaware that you were about to ruin his night.  It’s not that you didn’t want to fuck Tendou, you did, very much actually.  That’s just how whipped you are for Ushijima.  

“But I already told Tendou that I’d-”, you started.

“Go make up some excuse and then wait for me outside of the locker room.” he interrupted while he started for the gym doors. Ushijima was hardly in the mood to share you tonight, or ever really.  You watched him leave while standing and staring, awkwardly contemplating what to say to Tendou.  You mustered up the courage to walk over to him, smiling and saying goodnight to Semi as you passed him on his way out.  

“Hey, umm, I just remembered that I’ve got a ton of homework that’s due tomorrow and I just think I should probably-”

“What did Ushijima just say to you?” he caught you off guard with his question, although you should have been expecting it.  

“Nothing, I just have a lot of homework.” you quickly replied.

Tendou rolled his eyes, “Come on, we’re closer than that, you don’t have to lie to me.” His hands were placed on his hips in an annoyed fashion.  

You remained silent, thinking of anything you could say to ease the tension.  

“Ok, I’ll say something then.  Are you dating Ushijima or something?”

You shook your head.

“Ok...so then last I checked you were still the team manager, would that be correct?  Meaning you’re not just Ushijima’s to play with? Cuz there are other guys on the team that are stressed out too, if that’s what we’re even calling it anymore.”

You blushed at this choice of words.  “You don’t understand, I-” you started again.

“I think I do understand actually.  And just so you know, he’s never going to give you what you want.  You think you’re the first girl to fall for him?” He scoffed.  “I mean, fuck,” he ran his taped up fingers through his sweat-soaked hair.  “It just gets old, ya know?” Tendou looked so hurt and angry.  He opened his mouth to speak but closed it promptly and turned on his heel to leave.  You reached to grab his arm before he could slip out of your grasp.

“Wait, Tendou...please.” you whispered into his sleeve, despite being the only two left in the vast gymnasium.  “I don’t want things to be like this either.  You,” you paused to collect your thoughts. “You’re my friend and I love all the time that we get to spend together.  I always have the best time with you. But I can’t help liking Ushijima.  So please don’t be mad at me,” you prayed into his arm, still gripping at his sleeve.  

He finally turned around to face you, taking a deep inhale, he looked down into your wide, pleading eyes while exhaling through his nose.  

“Fuck, don’t look at me like that.” he looked away from you.  

“Look at you, how?” You prodded, widening your eyes and moving closer to him.  

“You know exactly how.” he smirked, bringing his hands to rest at your sides, lightly rubbing his thumbs in soothing circular motions.  Beginning at the bottom of his abdomen you begin running your hands up his stomach, to his chest, shoulders, and finally around his neck.  Standing on your tippy toes you pull him down to your level.  

“Can I tell you a secret?” you breathed in his ear.  

“Please,” he replied, his hands making their way down to your ass.  

“You’re the one that I think about. It’s your hands that I imagine are touching me when I’m touching myself. You always make me feel so good, Tendou.”

“Ughh why are you doing this to me?” He whined, tipping his head back.  It was then that you noticed the prominent tent in his pants, poking you in the stomach.  

You’d never seen Tendou so flustered in the short time that you’d known him.  He was usually the one making you flustered, not the other way around.  It was a nice change of pace.   It was also refreshing to know you had a kind of power over him, the kind to make him lose his mind.  

“You sure you can’t bail on him?” He asked, hope gleaming in his red eyes.   It made you pause to think about your options, a wicked idea popped into your head.

“Come wait with me?” you began pulling his arm towards the gym doors.  He looked confused, but followed you anyway.  Maybe you needed to give Ushijima a little push, it’s only a bonus that you get to makeout with Tendou too.

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The concrete bricks felt cold against the backs of your legs as Tendou shoved you against the locker room corridor hallway, the entrance to the room just around the corner.   One of his hands cradled the back of your head, protecting it from the hard brick while the other pressed bruises into your waist.  His chapped lips scraped against yours in a heated kiss, tongues fighting for dominance, his eventually winning as you whined into his mouth.  He broke the kiss to stroke his own ego, his hands trailing down your sides to play with the waistband of your shorts.  

“So you really think about my hands touching you when you play with that cute little cunt?”

“Please Tendou”, you moaned in response.  

“I think you’ve had enough attention for today, fucking teasing me for the last fifteen minutes. Hell, the last couple weeks actually.  You fucking rile me up just to go fuck some other dude.  You like being a little slut? Hmm?”  

You were at a loss for words.  As much as his words were turning you on, you knew there was some truth behind them.  He was onto your antics and done with them.  

“You think I don’t know why we’re making out right by the locker rooms?  Are you trying to make Ushijima feel like he’s missing out or something?  Being all cute with me to show him how good of a girlfriend you’d be? Well fuck that shit. Get on your knees slut.”

He removed his hand from your waistband and brought them to your shoulders guiding you down to your knees. You couldn’t even rest on your calves, you had to stand up as tall as you could on your knees to be eye level with the imprint in his shorts.  

“Fuck, it doesn’t take much, does it?” He scoffed as he pulled his shorts down to reveal his hard, heavy cock.

“Aw you didn’t think we’d take it this far, didja?  Better make this quick if you don’t want your boyfriend to catch us!” Tendou tilted his head to the side, a smirk plastered on his face while he caressed the top of your head.  

You opened your mouth to lap up the precum on his tip, swirling your tongue along the soft skin on the head of his cock.  

“Nah, I don’t feel like being teased anymore today.” Tendou spoke as he readjusted his grip on your head, scooting you back until you were trapped between the painted brick wall and his body.  You didn’t have a moment to adjust before his cock was plugging up your throat, making you gag around him.  The pace started brutally, shoving in and out of your mouth.  It was all you could do to keep up, running your tongue against the engorged vein on the underside of his cock.  He never eased up until you tapped his thigh signifying you had enough.  

“Too much?” he condescended.  You looked back up at him with watery eyes, swallowing as many breaths as you could before it all started over again.  

“This would have been much nicer for both of us if you hadn’t ditched me,  I would’ve made you feel so good, baby.”  He paused to take in your appearance, you looked so pretty like this.  Your hair was a mess, eyes watery, lips so fucking swollen, drool dripping down the sides of your mouth, your chest heaving, and he had a great view down your shirt.  Is this what his captain got to see everyday?  The thought filled him with rage.  If he had known he’d come to feel this way about you, he would’ve just asked you out, not asked you to be the manager.  Ushijima wouldn’t have ever noticed you had it not been for him!  Fuck, that’s annoying.

“Ya ready for a little more?”

You smiled at him through bated breaths, nodding your head.  Things hadn’t gone exactly to plan, but you were still having a good time.  You opened your mouth, closed your eyes, and stuck out your tongue, ready for whatever he had to give you.  Tendou bent down into a squat until his mouth hovered just above yours.  You felt something warm and sticky hit your tongue, you opened your eyes only to find a thin line of spit connecting Tendou’s lips with the liquid pooling in your mouth. Did he just spit in your mouth?  Before you could say anything he was back on his feet, cock in his hand, rolling it in the spit laying on your tongue.  He inched his way back into your throat, watching your eyes water with every thrust of his hips.  

“Fuck you’re gonnna make me cum if you keep looking at me like that.” He continued thrusting, your throat convulsing around his cock.  

“You’re gonna leave here with a tummy full of cum, ok sweetie?” His breaths and thrusts were becoming stuttered, he was close.  

“You’re gonna fuck Ushijima with my cum swirling around in your stomach.”  He whimpered, talking himself into an orgasm. With his hips giving one final thrust, you felt the back of your throat flood with cum.  Tendou held his hips flush to your mouth for a few seconds, emptying himself completely into your stomach.  He hissed as he pulled your head off of his now oversensitive cock.  

“Lemme see.” he sighed.   You stuck out your tongue, displaying your empty mouth to him.  

“Mmm good girl.”  He offered you his hand to help you up off of your knees.  He tucked himself back into his pants as the locker room door creaked open.  

“That’s my queue!” Tendou pulled you in for one final kiss, moaning as the taste of his cum hit his tongue.  And with that, he shrugged his backpack onto his shoulders and took off walking down the hallway.  

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You walked face first into a warm chest when you rounded the corner leading to the locker room door, looking for Ushijima.  Looks like you had found him.  His hair was still damp from the shower, his body was warm and humid through his clothes.  

“Are you ready to go?” He asked.  

“Yea-” you cleared your throat.  “Yeah!” That’s better.  Your voice was horse and your throat was sore.  

Ushijima noted your appearance.  Your hair was messy and your makeup was smudged.  Your lips were bright red and your chin was glistening.  He took your hand in his to begin the quiet walk to his dorm room.  He heard footsteps in the opposite direction, only to turn around to see Tendou walking away from the two of you, a slight pep in his step and unknownst to Ushijima a smug look on his face.  

[yellowocaballero]

Love this new chapter i can't wait to read the epilogue!! *Distant sounds of wailing and glass breaking* (⁠つ⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)⁠つ🌻🌻🌻💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

THANK YOU it's one of those weird chapters where you've been looking forward to writing it the entire story but once you get there you're big ???. Part of the reason the last two chapters had so many rewrites is because I had so much "Layla says X happened, which the reader didn't know about", and I decided that it would be stronger if I went back and just included those things. The deeply unreliable narrators didn't give you much of a signpost for what was really going on (they didn't even remember three days!), so the 'debrief' was necessary.

As a result, I hope the explicit statement of Frenchie's guilt/the resolution of the guilt didn't come out of left field. You get the first few lines of a lot of arguments lol. But that feeling of powerlessness and failure impacts a lot of his behavior this story. Couldn't fix it last time, so he HAS to fix it this time. What do you mean it's unfixable.

Didn't expect this going on, but once I made the final scene include Khonshu then I realized I had to wrap up the Khonshu thread. In a way it's a strong parallel of Marc/Steven's unreliable narrator-ness causing a blindness to the actual problem (Marc didn't realize he was being hypervigilant from fear; Steven didn't realize he was obsessively engaging in escapism to avoid uncomfortable confrontations) - Jake's variant of that is denial, where he uses his unreliable narrator-ness to gloss over the truth of his relationship with Khonshu. Jake's lost a lot of his walls and we see the truth of it now. It's disturbing. It's also unfixed (Jake's still can't leave situation and can't afford to be pushed rn), but many many things in this story are unfixed. Just acknowledged.

And obviously I loved finishing it on the parallelism note of Marc falling in love with Layla and asking her out. Dude's come SO far to come back to the beginning lol. It felt wonderful for his arc with Layla to show Layla becoming a safe and trusted person to him - when Marc's trusted VERY few people. It feels good to see Marc feel safe. But it feels like a promise that things will move forward again, that Marc will get back to where he's meant to be with Layla, and maybe even better. And cuz he's so unrepressed and open and SO socially awkward he's a giant awkward goofball about it lmfao. Meanwhile Steven. lmfao. Thanks for reading!

[yannowhatigiveup]

My One And Only - Ch 2

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Again, this chapter isn’t as long as the others but I pROmiSe the chapters up ahead are longer. Also if you wanna join the tag list just ask :3

Also I am aware he said ‘superhero’ instead of ‘vigilante’ it was a mistake I might fix later lol

"Watch out Paris, a new superhero's coming to town”

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Two days later...

Caline Bustier looked around, worriedly scanning all the students while doing a head count in her head. 'One missing' she thought to herself. Marinette Dupain-Cheng wasn't here. Miss Bustier knew that Marinette would wonder off at times but she would always tell her and if she didn't, there was always someone nearby. But this time, there wasn't. "Lila told me she got on the bus" the teacher mumbled to herself. 'She wouldn't lie about that, would she?'. Miss Bustier then spotted Alya, she looked as if she was recording herself for her blog possibly, 'Surely she would know where Marinette is'. "Alya?"

The girl stopped recording and turned to her teacher. "Yes Miss Bustier?"

"Did you see Marinette on the bus? Lila said she did but I'm beginning to doubt her now" her voice trailed off at the end but she kept her eye contact with her student.

"No, Marinette never got on the bus" Alya said with slight worry in her voice. "But I am in contact with her, she's been sending video messages".

"Is she lost?"

"Slightly but she says she'll be here soon"

Miss Bustier let out a sigh of relief. "Tell her that she can take her time and not to worry, she has until 12 to get here. We'll be in this location until 4 pm. It's only-" she checked her watch "9 am right now so she has plenty of time" Alya nodded "But if she goes 30 minutes without sending a message, I want you to tell me right away"

"I will Miss Bustier"

"Good" Caline breathed, she headed over to where Mylene and Ivan were to ask if they'd seen Lila. If they hadn't, she would move on to talk to Rose and Juleka. She needed to talk with Lila. "It could be a misunderstanding" the teacher mumbled to herself. 'But it's happened before' she thought. The teacher kept herself on high alert to see if she could spot Marinette from afar, if she had found her way of course. This high alertness made her able to ease drop the conversation Alya was having with Nino and Adrien.

"That Lila snake back at it with her lies" she heard the girl say. "This time Marinette has been left behind because of it"

"Poor Marinette" Adiren murmured concern for his friend.

"At least Miss Bustier knows" Nino said to both his best friend and his girlfriend. "And Marinette can take care of herself".

Hearing they're words made Caline feel guilty, as if there was a way to stop this from ever happening. "But Marinette is one of my top students, she's our everyday ladybug so I'm sure she'll be able to find her way" Miss Bustier said, half believing what she told herself.

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A bluenette was racing down the streets of Paris, luckily most of the paths were empty as she probably would've run into someone by now. "Oh Tikki" she said sadly to her loyal kwami in her bag. "I can't believe my class left without me". She kept running but a few tears ran down her cheek, but since she was sprinting, her face stayed dry.

"It's okay Marinette!" The kwami said while being jostled around in her owner's bag. "We'll get there I know we will!"

"Thanks Tikki" the girl said. "I can't believe how I actually believed what that that lying snake said".

Marinette was also holding a folder with her, with some of her original designs inside. She was supposed to meet her uncle, Jagged Stone, after the school trip. Marinette made sure that none of the papers flew out of the folder, but this concentration made her disregard what was ahead of her. Someone had turned the corner. Crash. Marinette ran into this person and had, some how, managed to trip them up. They must have been taller and had a better build than her as their weight was greater than hers.

It was Damian's first day in Paris, it was still morning. He thought it would be a relatively quiet day but that changed when something ran into him and tripped him up. He was aware it was a person, he just didn't know whom, after all, he knew no one in Paris. He assumed he might have to be the one to go to someone or make a friend to actually get to interrogate them. He just didn't expect the opportunity to come so soon.

He opened his eyes and there he saw the person that was under him, it was a girl. A girl with kind face, beautiful blue hair and gorgeous blue eyes to match. Though there was a tear stain. 'She must have been crying recently' he thought. He didn't realise that the girl was also examining his face.

'Wow, he's so...I...his eyes...' A bunch of words were scrambled in her thoughts as she stared into the pools of gorgeous emerald green eyes but then she realised what had happened.

"I'm so sorry!" The girl blurted out in French. 'Her voice is so...no Damian snap out of it!'

"It's fine-"

"No it isn't! I'm the one who ran into you and tripped you up. I am so sorry, I'm such a klutz". Damian then realised how this situation might have looked to others who didn't have any context, his face turned a shade of red. The girl must have also realised cuz her cheeks became rosy red as well. 'Cute, wait what?' Damian then got up and leant his hand out of the girl.

"No honestly it's fine" he said as the girl got up. He noticed a folder and knelt down to get it for her, the way she blushed as he gave it to her made him subconsciously smile. 'What's going on with me?'.

"Thank you" the girl mustered up after a few seconds. "Also I hope you don't mind me asking but I noticed you have a bit of an accent, are you visiting Paris?"

"I don't mind at all and yes, I have come from Gotham" he told her, still with a blank expression on his face.

"Well we can talk in English then if it's more comfortable with you, I do need to practice it" the girl said switching to English. "How has your stay been so far?"

"Well today is actually my first day here, I arrived last night" Damian said, also switching to English.

"Oh that's cool! I hope your day, and your stay, goes well!" She said with a smile on her face. "And let's hope you don't get mixed in with some akumatized villains" she whispered, though Damian managed to here it. 'Akuma what?' He wanted to ask her about it but her eyes were drifting off elsewhere.

Marinette spotted a cafe she sometimes goes to. "Are you busy? If not then let me treat you to something after all you are the guest here!" There was a delightful smile on her face and she made sure she was pleading in her eyes.

"Well I don't have anything I'm supposed to do but-"

"Great!" She grabbed his hand and began walking to the cafe she spotted.

'...This girl, I like her'

~~~

Taglist: @little-bluestar, @miracleofadisaster

[makeste]

some rambly Wednesday night thoughts on Kacchan’s hero name

so out of acknowledgement of the fact that the vast majority of fandom has basically accepted Dynamight as canon, I have been doing some analyzing of my own internal fandom biases these past few days, trying to identify just what it is that’s still making me have such a hard time accepting this name reveal. and I think I’ve pinpointed that now. and so now that I have, I would like to partially renege on my previous post, because that was four whole days ago, and we have to grow and change with the times or else they will a-change without us.

anyway, so basically what it boils down to is that for me, it’s not enough for his name to just be an All Might tribute. for me, the reveal of oh, he named himself after All Might is just not enough on its own to justify having a 200-chapter arc devoted to this plot. it’s not a satisfying resolution. because the thing is, we already knew that. and so that’s basically the thought that’s been running through my head these past few days whenever I see posts analyzing the new name. okay, but we already knew that, though.

I’m trying to figure out how best to describe this, but basically it’s like this constant feeling of waiting for someone to finally finish the rest of their sentence. like, yeah, I get that, I already heard that part. but where’s the rest of it? because this doesn’t tell us anything new, is the thing. this is something we’ve known about Bakugou since day one. “I’ll even surpass All Might and become the best hero out there.”  yes, he looks up to All Might, that’s fine and that’s great, but we knew that.

here’s what it is for me. I need the name reveal to answer this specific question: what makes the Kacchan from chapter 252 different from the Kacchan all the way back in chapter 45? what is it that’s changed? what is different about him now? different enough that it took a journey of more than 200 chapters for him to finally settle on this choice?

and in my view, the answer to this question is very clearly not All Might, but Deku.

Deku is what has changed for him. his relationship with Deku. his restored trust in Deku. his desire to make amends to Deku. that’s the difference. this is what chapter 252 Kacchan has that chapter 45 Kacchan did not have. this is the only answer that to me makes any kind of narrative sense. when he makes the decision in chapter 252, when he finally settles on a name, his mind is clearly fixated on thoughts of atonement. and so his chosen name, in the end, has to relate back to Deku in some way in order for it to connect. that link has to be there somehow. that’s the only way that his name ties in with all of his character growth. that’s the only possible way this is going to feel right to me.

so yeah, if it turns out that the origins of the name “Dynamight” begin and end with Katsuki being a colossal fanboy nerd, I will be disappointed, ngl. not because I don’t think his admiration for All Might is important, because it is. but I will be disappointed because “I want to be like All Might” is his starting line, not his finish line. I’ll be disappointed because he’s had so much character growth since the story began that for him to choose a name that’s seemingly unrelated to all of that would seriously feel like a letdown.

having said that, there is one popular theory which, if true, would check off that box of “the name has to be connected to Deku” which is apparently such a deal-breaker to me! and that is the “Dynamight is a name that Deku originally suggested for him when they were kids” theory (as seen here for example). which I guess technically falls less under the category of “theory” and more under “speculation”, but still. the thing is, it’s all based on reasoning rather than evidence, but I think said reasoning is pretty sound. it’s basically that same rationale of “this doesn’t make narrative sense if there is no connection to Deku; so therefore, if this is his chosen name, it means that it must relate back to Deku in some way.” which to me is reasonable. and so if it does turn out to be true, I’m thinking I can get on board with that.

the 293 reveal scene is still pretty out of left field to me, ngl! but it’s worth noting that this is absolutely not the final version of his name, because as of right now the full name is technically GREAT EXPLOSION MURDER GOD DYNAMIGHT. the “GREAT EXPLOSION MURDER GOD” part isn’t just a title or preamble (all of those end with “hero”, so if that were the case it would have been “Explosion Murder God Hero: Dynamight”); it’s literally part of the name. I do appreciate that (as others have pointed out) he has apparently upgraded himself from Lord Explosion Murder to God Explosion Murder. but anyway, so it does mean he’ll need to change it at least one more time, though. which means we’ll get another “reveal” scene, and Horikoshi can pour all of the emotional weight and resonance into this second one, and if he does it right I don’t doubt he will sell me on it fully and completely.

and actually, if he really wants to go for the jugular, there is one long-awaited bonus move he can pull that will make it so that I basically never question anything he does ever again lol. and that is... well okay, let me backtrack. so first of all, maybe we get a scene where class 1-A is gathered at the hospital, or back in the dorms after everything has wrapped up, just convalescing and taking comfort in each others’ presence to distract them from thinking about how much therapy they’re all going to need now. and so they’re all there talking, and somehow word of Kacchan’s new hero name gets out, and while everyone else in the class is collapsed on the floor in tears, Kacchan and Deku maybe make some Significant Eye Contact for a bit and then Deku eventually says he likes it, but maybe shorten it down to just “Dynamight” though. and Kacchan is all “stfu nerd if I want your opinion I’ll ask for it” but of course he does go on to change it though, but not because of Deku’s suggestion!! just so we’re clear!! it’s just cuz he felt like it!! shut up!!

anyway. and just to be clear this last part is just me being WILDLY indulgent really, but I think it would be a real Power Move on Horikoshi’s part if afterwards, we cut to Deku heading back to his dorm room and thoughtfully lying back on his bed to reminisce, leading us into the flashback (by which I mean THE flashback, where Horikoshi shows that the name was actually his idea). and then, once we emerge back out of the flashback and into the room again, we see the familiar All Might posters on the wall and assume that we’re back in the present with Deku. but then we see the person that’s actually lying on the bed and it’s like WAIT A DARN SECOND, and that’s when Horikoshi reveals that we have actually transitioned to Kacchan’s room instead. BOOM. HOW YA LIKE THAT. TWO MYSTERIES SOLVED FOR THE PRICE OF ONE. TWIN FLASHBACKS, TWIN NERDY BEDROOMS. ALL THE PARALLELS YOU COULD EVER POSSIBLY WANT. MIRROR IMAGES, BABY. IT’S SPIDER-MAN POINTING MEMES ALL THE WAY DOWN.

lol but so anyways. tl;dr I’m coming around on this a bit. there are still certain things about “Dynamight” that will still feel slightly off to me even if the Deku Invented It theory does come to pass, mind. the main one being that it doesn’t really fit in with the theming of Deku and Shouto’s hero names, which I think are so simple -- basically just their own names -- for a reason. that reason being that it symbolically sets them apart from the flashy, superficial hero society of the past, and signals that this new generation will be different from that. and I won’t lie, I’ve always liked that about their names, and so if Kacchan’s doesn’t also fit in with this theme, it’s always going to look just slightly out of place to me. but unlike the Deku thing, that one’s not a personal deal-breaker, and I can learn to live with it.

so I guess we’ll see how it goes! right now it’s still about 50/50 for me; I can only talk myself into it so much until we see more of how this develops. it’s been long enough since the chapter release that I’ve had just enough time to completely second-guess myself on everything I ever thought I knew, but then two seconds later I’ll be like “nah this whole thing is completely crazy lol it was literally just a joke panel” and the whole process begins itself anew lol. all I know for sure is that I seriously cannot wait for the aftermath of this arc. it’s gonna be lit you guys. it is going to be so stupidly, stupidly good.

[kumoriyami-xiuzhen]

Hakuoki Yuugiroku 2 - Okita Chapter 1

This is my first post of the month, so I’ll start by asking you to please support me if you can through my ko-fi, and paypal or patreon which provides access to my hakuoki blog translations and early access to my postings. Also, please let me know if you have any hakuoki drama cds that you’d be willing to share that are on my Lookout List since i either do not have audio for those cds or do not have audio that I can share…. and if you are able to remove watermarks from a video, please contact me…

*sigh* i seem to have lost my favourite pliers (yes i have a favourite pair. you would too if you were making chainmaille cuz that seriously hurts your hand after a while lol). they were the only needle-nose pliers i have and while i can’t say im not tempted to get another pair as the ones im using now are broad-headed pliers, and using them is extremely difficult with the ring size im working with, im extremely cheap when it comes to getting new tools if i already have them.

anyway. enjoy! 

Hakuoki Yuugiroku 2 Chapter 1 - Okita

Translation by KumoriYami

The pleasant sound of birds chirping came from nearby/ I didn't know where they came from, but I heard the pleasant chirping of birds.

I was hurriedly walking through headquarters———

Yukimura: Ah.....

I saw/bumped into Okita-san, who seemed to be unusually idle. .

Yukimura:…………

As I thought about the worrying conversation that happened this morning, I summoned my courage to try and greet him/courage and called out to him.

Yukimura: Ah, um, Okita-san......!

Souji: What is it?

Yukimura: Can I have a bit of your time......?

Souji: That’s fine, but...is this about the festival? Did you want to go too, Chizuru-chan?

Yukimura: !

Souji:......Well, there’s no way that it’s not that [???]. You should know what sort of position you’re in.

Souji: Although it's a rare festival [reword later? basically festivals rarely occur], you however, can't leave headquarters by yourself, right?

Yukimura:…………

Souji:…………

With his smile full of ill intentions, Okita-san stared at me as if he were urging something......

Yukimura: If, If Okita-san doesn’t mind, I’d be very happy if you could take me to the festival... 

Souji: Heh. It's a bit surprising/little unexpected. [That?] You'd actually ask me that.

Souji: I don’t mind (though). I can’t/don't have patrol or need to practise today/I’m not allowed to patrol or practise today, so I have some/can spare the spare time.

Yukimura: Can’t /Not allowed to practise...?

Although those words made me feel uncomfortable, as I tilted my head... 

Okita-san simply smiled, not answering the question I had just asked, and continued/and changed the subject. 

Souji: Anyway, call me when/if you're ready to go out.

Souji: I don’t want to cause any problems, so make sure you aren’t seen/found out by anyone else. 

Yukimura: Ah, that’s fine/there won’t be a problem...!

Souji: ?

Yukimura: Hijikata-san said that "it's okay, as long as/okay if you go with someone," and gave me permission to go out/head outside.

Souij:…………

I don't know why, but /For some reason, Okita-san suddenly fell silent and looked/became upset/frowned.  had an unhappy expression as he fell silent.

Yukimura: Ah, that/this/Ah, um.....?

Souji:......Well, that doesn't matter. Regardless of what Hijikata-san said, I'll be the one to actually go out with/accompany you.

Yukimura: H-Ha......

Souji: Hey, Chizuru-chan. Hurry up and/Quickly get ready. Otherwise you'll be left/I’ll leave you behind?

Yukimura: I understand!

After making my preparations to go to the festival, I met up with Okita-san to leave headquarters.

At this time, Okita-san's mood seemed to have completely improved, and he was smiling happily.

Souji: I'm really looking forward to the festival. Then let's go.

Yukimura: yes!

However, as we started walking, a person quickly rushed out in front of us. 

Yamazaki: Hold it/Wait, Okita-san. You can't leave/aren't allowed/ I can’t allow you to leave headquarters......!

Souji:——What would Chizuru-chan like to eat? There should be many stalls selling food/stalls that sell food at the festival. 

Yamazaki: Don't ignore me!!

As if to physically stop him, Yamazaki-san moved his own body to obstruct/block Okita-san’ path.

Yamazaki: I was talking to you just now, Okita-san!?

Yukimura: Um......

In contrast to Okita-san and Yamazaki-san who were facing each other, I worriedly/carefully asked a question.

Yukimura: Okita-san, did you do something/did something happen/is something wrong?

Souji:......Aren’t those words a bit much/too much?

Yamazaki: Okita-san was very sick. Just a few days ago, he still had a terrible fever and cough, and had been bedridden.

Souji:......I've already recovered.

Yamazaki: You haven't completely recovered yet. [Furthermore,] The Vice-Commander should have ordered [that you] "are not allowed to go out until you recover first."

Yukimura: Is, Is that so?

Souji:…………

Perhaps it because of his illness being mentioned, or maybe it was because of Hijikata-san's name...

That Okita-san looked incredibly upset, and his expression became angry [or something like that. this sentence was weird]. 

Yukimura: Okita-san. Was there a reason (for) why you couldn’t/weren’t allowed to practise?

Souji:.......Everyone's just too overprotective. It's not that serious, but it's just that the dojo is so noisy that I’m staying away from it [really word. reword later?].

Yamazaki: Regardless of what Okita-san may say,  you aren't allowed to pass through here. It’s what the Vice-Commander has ordered. 

Yukimura:…………

I clenched my fists and stared straight at Okita-san. [not sure bout this sentence since i can interpret at least 5 different ways].

Yukimura: Let's go back/return/head back for now/the time being. Even with force, I don't think Yamazaki will ever be leaving here/moved | I don’t think Yamazaki-san will leave here, even if you used force...

Souji:…………

Yukimura: Please, Okita-san.

Even after listening to me though, Okita-san didn't provide any response......

After a while/Eventually, he reluctantly started walking and returned to headquarters.

However, Okita-san still hadn't/didn't seem to have recovered from his bad mood/ when he separated from me, it still seemed like Okita-san hadn’t recovered from his bad mood——。

-end of chapter-

[thejolteonmastertjspoilers]

The Monoma Meta Nobody Asked For

I don’t remember who it was on Reddit that said it makes sense for Monoma to be one of the most empathetic characters in BNHA cuz of his Quirk, (his quirk allows him to walk in the shoes of other people in ways most will never be able to even if for 5 minutes at a time), but let’s talk about it for a minute.

Monoma is a character full of contradictions but there’s a method to the madness. 

Let’s take a real deep look at the manga shall we?

It’s pretty much canon that Monoma trash talks 1-A so much in-part b/c he cares that much... too much... about his own classmates.  It’s implicitly obvious based on the way he interacts with his classmates and phrases his rants at class 1-A. 

The fact that he’s obviously influenced by Vlad is just the cherry on top. 

He’s prideful of not just himself but also his friends.  Let’s break down the nuances there.

Ch196 above, Ch207 below.

Empathy

The kid has a way with words. 

The kid has a weirdly poetic way with words.

He goes out of his way to encourage or reassure his classmates in a deeply thoughtful manner at every given opportunity.

He hyped up Setsuna Tokage before her battle with Bakugo and we saw him grin in pride when Komori took down Tokoyami. 

Whenever Monoma does criticize his classmates, it’s always frank, honest, but constructive, with the intention to help them improve.  He’s even contrasted with his own teacher for being relatively more kind in the delivery of his criticism (see the next screenshot).  Given that Monoma’s shown to be strongly influenced by Vlad, this particular difference stands out.

You never see an anime/manga character get fancifully philosophical & genuinely helpful like this unless they are an adult, usually the MC’s mentor.  Monoma’s legit acting more like an anime mentor than any of Deku’s multiple mentors.  lmfaooo.

Realistically speaking, all of this, the philosophical speeches & level-headed advice, takes an incredible amount of emotional & mental labor.  The kid’s practically doing half of Vlad’s job for him.

It’s during the joint training arc we begin to see why his classmates put up with him and are on friendly terms despite how obnoxious & cheesy he can be & how often they need to keep him in check.

It’s clear even as far back as the sports festival that his classmates don’t actually hate him, despite the smacks & tough love they also just shake their heads with a smile on their face as they say “sorry about him,” cuz that’s just the way he is.  They love him anyways.

He’s an annoying little sh*t but he’s their annoying little sh*t.  Perhaps they even realize why he acts the way he does towards class 1-A, it’s because he cares too much.

Sketch translated by @aitaikimochi​

Putting Up An Act

I think there’s actually even more to it when it comes to his rowdy & brash behaviors. 

Monoma is empathetic because of how his Quirk works.  He needs to learn to use the Quirks of others in order to become a hero.  In doing so he logically needs to become privy to all the Quirk’s weaknesses, not just their strengths.  Not only does he need to become privy to these often deeply personal details of one’s lived life, he needs to experience them, even if for just five minutes at a time.  It’s natural, even necessary, for Monoma to become exceptionally close to his classmates.

But he’s only like that because of how his Quirk works.  It’s his naturally nurtured self.  His conscious self, though, is notably different.

What we see when Monoma says he and Shinsou need to do unheroic things to get by is not his naturally nurtured self, but is a conscious decision.

At some point in his life, Monoma came to the conclusion that being too kindhearted all the time will be weakness.  This is clearly implied, almost outright stated when we heard Monoma’s thoughts when faced with Deku’s Black Whip, “All of the hopes and dreams in my mind from when I was younger are gradually becoming these heavy burdens... like some sort of curse.”  I am 99.999% sure it’s Monoma’s thoughts being shown there because the speech pattern & context don’t match up to Shinsou or Midoriya at all.

Basically, Monoma is a little sh*t because he saw his own empathy as a weakness, and overcompensates for it.  He’s trained himself to be brash & mischievous, likely from a very young age given how consistently brash he is.  We can see a little bit of this when interacting with his class-B classmates as well.

It was @thyandrawrites​ who first noticed this in this post, but here we see Monoma scolding Kendou after losing the beauty contest, giving perhaps too much tough love & TetsuTetsu steps in to Kendou’s defense.

Given how Monoma during the Joint Training arc clearly said everything he did to motivate his friends to do better, this is likely not an isolated occurrence.  The dude cares way too goddamn much for anyone’s good.

Yet there’s something else up with the guy too, something else that contributes even more to his unhealthy obsession with the rivalry vs class-A.  The dude has some serious self-esteem issues but is too prideful to seek real help.

Self-doubt

The fact that he’s the only member of class-B who failed the midterm despite having an intelligence stat of 5/5 speaks for itself.

Him failing the academic exam would be a sign of serious issues going on under the surface in itself, him failing the practical means he probably failed b/c he couldn’t hold his own and his teammate had to pick up the slack.

Him failing b/c he held back his teammate would have hit very close to home since we now know he was told “You can’t be a hero if you can’t do anything yourself” since he was a kid.

Basically, yet another reason he continues to antagonize class-A is a textbook example of someone pushing their insecurities onto someone or something else.

For something often played off as comedic relief there’s a lot of layers as to why Monoma does what he does.

But wait, there’s f*cking more.  There’s actually a particular reason Monoma expresses his insecurities in this unhealthy manner, and that reason ties into what I’ve already begun to address about his empathy.

Another Act

I don’t think it’s accident that the first time we see him have a real heart-to-heart with someone is when he’s attempting to do it for the sake of someone else.  Even if it is in a clumsy manner that ends up annoying Shinsou, it’s the intent I’m interested in here.

We almost never see Monoma receive or accept praise or reassurance, he’s always the one giving it.  He always makes it a point to put himself in the position where he’s being the emotionally strong one. 

He got over class 1-A securing their victory exceptionally fast, ready to put on a strong face for Tokage and the rest of his class.

The few times we do see him genuinely depressed, he’s distancing himself from others.  

He’s afraid of holding others back not just as a hero, but emotionally as well.  His instinct to be emotionally strong for the people he cares about stems not just from his strong empathy and caring nature nature itself, but also from his pride, insecurities and conscious decision to do everything he can do.

This is why he’s too prideful to seek or accept real emotional help & ends up venting his emotions in unhealthy & destructive ways.

His many depictions as an actor of sorts was intentional.  He juggles many acts, he puts on an act of emotional strength for his classmates, and he puts on an act of cruelty to get by as a hero.  To antagonize people in an attempt to throw them off their game.  Sometimes... oftentimes even, he misapplies these charades & gets carried away.  Oftentimes he fails entirely, he’s trying to do some hella complex things for a kid.

Finally, His Pride

Let’s not kid ourselves here, the dude has a major superiority/inferiority complex.  He fails to see how needlessly cruel he’s being when saying class-A asked to be attacked by villains etc.

I’m willing to bet he’ll be in a phase denial for a while now that Class-B and Class-A have gotten more openly friendly in recent chapters.  But because he cares so much about his classmates he’ll likely eventually come around to adjusting to a new frenemy relationship with 1-A... with much difficulty when we take his pride, insecurities & self-righteous envy into account.

He’ll probably end up being Tsundere about everything to protect his ego and so Horikoshi can keep using him for comedic relief lol.  Even if he does realize a lot of what he’s done was f*ked up, he’s too brash of a prankster to ever go fully soft on them either.

TL;DR... Monoma is a piece of mf work.  Not surprising really.

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so ive been debating editing chapter 3 on my fanfic to make 1 scene line up more from canon. (chapter 3 is this one, where the characters deal with the aftermath of battle for the cowl, Tim finds out Damian’s Robin, and Dick and Damian move to the penthouse)

I’m debating making the Tim finding out Damian’s Robin scene a little more canon compliant along what happened in Red Robin (link) for a few reasons, the main of which is in the scenes that I’m writing next (like... chapter 47 lol), Tim and Dick do have to talk about what transpired when Dick made Damian Robin. Potential reasons for change

In my fic Tim kind of just left on his own without a push, but I’m not sure if Tim would have left on such bad terms if there wasn’t the complication of Damian antagonizing him and him feeling as if Dick was picking Damian over him (even though in the comic we saw Dick trying to de-escalate and get Tim’s back, it still felt that way to Tim)

I dislike the way some of this was handled in the comic and I can’t really comment on it in my fic if I just retcon it out

it seems fair-er I guess if Tim is allowed to have flaws just like Cass and Damian and Dick all have flaws in this fic. i know many tim stans think otherwise, but punching a ten-year-old victim of child abuse in the face out of anger is wrong.

the con side is obviously this involves Damian getting hit and that kid has been through so much already. I’m really trying to figure out how it works with character dynamics vs like. give the poor kid a break-ness.

anyway if I did decide to replace the current chapter 3, this is what it would be replaced with (only the first scene, the second would be the same). If you are a reader of the fic feel free to leave your comments. I would do an “oh and I edited chapter 3″ note before the relevant stuff was mentioned if I go through with this, I wouldn’t like expect everyone to know what happened. Some of the dialogue is not like exactly like in canon (cuz thats boring and also to match with what I wrote the first time) but the feeling/ beats should be similar

Gotham’s finally had a bit of lull in the violence, and Dick is just wondering how he’s going to do this.

He’s accepted that Damian’s his responsibility – seeing the kid shot in the chest made that perfectly clear, as much as he would’ve liked it to be otherwise. He felt like he was way too young to be watching out for a kid in any capacity other than cool older brother, especially a kid who’s as difficult to get along with as Damian. He was a great fighter, of course, and he knew it – Dick’s not sure he’s ever heard the kid be humble about anything. To make things worse, Dick feels like he’s constantly stuck in the middle between Damian and the kid he actually views as his younger brother – Tim, who Damian tried to kill. Evidence in point:

“Robin?!” Tim asks once he’s gotten back on his feet and Dick's explained his plan – away from Damian, who's still recovering from surgery.

“You made Damian Robin?!” Tim asks again.

Dick sighs. He’s in the cave, in a Batman costume he feels doesn’t fit right at all with the cowl off, and Tim’s still in his regular clothes. He has no idea how to explain this to Tim – no idea how to make him feel like he’s not being replaced. Dick never wanted to be the one doing the replacing – he remembers how much it hurt to find out that Jason was Robin from the papers, and that was after he officially stopped being Robin. Tim never quit – and Dick’s not about to make him – but he has to come home to the guy who tried to kill him getting his name.

“Tim, I know this looks bad, but Damian needs this.”

“Remember when we thought Bruce was going to retire after Crisis?” Tim asks. “Batman and Robin was supposed to be us. You and me. Not you and the psychopath that tried to kill me.”

“Tim, you’re not my sidekick, you’re my partner – ” Dick takes a step towards Tim with his hand out, prepared to offer sympathy, but Tim shakes him off angrily.

“Obviously not!”

“And Damian needs me way more than you do. If we don’t keep an eye on him, he’s going to kill again.”

Tim scowls intensely. “That should really not be an endorsement for being Robin, Dick! He’s a killer! He belongs in jail!” Tim swallows a little and then lowers his voice out of shouting range. “Dick, he didn’t try to kill me because he for some reason thought it was the only way to stop me from doing something bad, as far as I can tell he just wanted to replace me. We’re talking about someone with absolutely no sense of right or wrong.”

“Of course he doesn’t have a sense of right or wrong. He’s a ten-year-old child who was raised as an assassin from birth!”

“Lots of our villains have really sad or sympathetic reasons for doing crime, that doesn’t mean we team up with them.”

“Are you serious?” Dick asks. “This isn’t the same, Tim.”

“How not?”

“Well for one,” calls Damian's voice from the stairs, and Dick can't help but cringe and think not now – “I'm a lot better than them.”

Dick's cringe only intensifies when he turns around to see what Damian is wearing. His new Robin costume.

Tim's hands clench into fists the instant he sees Damian. Dick knows he has to de-escalate things quick before Tim and Damian have another fight.

“Damian,” Dick says, trying to keep himself carefully neutral-sounding. “Shouldn't you be resting?”

Damian lifts his head up slightly so his nose is in the air, and walks down the stairs almost normally. There's only a little hesitation in the twist of his torso, a little stiffness of his right arm.

Either he's zoned out of his mind on painkillers or depressingly good at masking his pain for a ten-year-old.

“Please,” Damian says. “I was trained in the League of Shadows. Do you really think an over-the-hill ex-Robin could put me down?”

Tim's fist clenches further, and so Dick says, letting a bit more urgency slip into his voice, “Damian, shut up. Now.”

Damian puts his left hand on his hips and looks intentionally at Tim. He adds, “I'm not Drake – ”

He's barely got the word out before Tim leaps forward and punches him in the face. Dick's out of his seat, grabbing Tim to hold him back, who is still distressingly struggling against him, like he wants to keep up the assault despite the fact that Damian fell to the floor.

“My name is Tim Wayne!” Tim shouts as Dick is still holding him back.

Damian gingerly sits up. Dick prepares to release Tim, prepares to stop Damian if he has to, if he decides to get revenge. But he doesn't. He just briefly braces his right side with his left hand before wiping the blood off his face.

“I let you get that shot in, Drake,” Damian says, again dropping intentional emphasis on Tim's original last name.

As he does, Tim struggles forward.

“Tim, back off!” Dick says, because Tim still isn't cooling down –

“I want you to feel good about yourself,” Damian continues.

Tim seems to relax his stance slightly, so Dick, possibly in an error of judgment, lets Tim go. But Tim doesn't try to attack Damian again, he just shakes Dick off and starts stomping away. “You want me to back off? Fine.”

He's going for the exit.

If he leaves –

Dick can't chase him. He's not sure that he can leave Damian alone –

“Tim, wait!” Dick says, taking a step forward. “Bruce is gone. But I still need you.”

“For what?” asks Damian and damn it is there anything this kid isn't going to try to ruin?

“Shut up, Damian,” Dick says again, even though as far as he knows he's just going to wind up pushing Damian away too –

And Tim leaves.

Dick turns to look at Damian. The kid's already back to his feet, like nothing happened, and Dick takes a step forward to inspect the injury – though he's really more worried about the gunshot wound than Tim's punch. Both Tim and Damian had wound up injured pretty badly during the chaos that gripped Gotham in the rumors of Batman’s death. As his new and not-improved version of Batman, Jason had tried to kill them both, which Dick is way less than pleased about. He’d been kind of hoping that they could talk Jason down, but this seems like a line he doesn’t know if Jason can ever un-cross. He shot a ten year old in the chest.

Damian grabs Dick's wrist as he reaches out.

“Are you all right?” Dick asks.

Damian scoffs. “You're worried about Drake? I've been hit harder sparring my mother.”

“I was thinking about the gunshot.” Alfred had said the primary damage was blood loss and a punctured lung (well, traumatic pneumothorax, but Dick knew what he meant) and given the kid a minimum of four weeks downtime to heal.

It's hard to tell due to the domino mask, but Damian adopts the position of a kid who's rolling their eyes, head slightly tilted to the side with a loll. “It's not enough to impersonate Batman, now you want to impersonate my mother?”

Dick doesn't know how to approach the mother thing, so he doesn't even try. He just explains the logic for being Batman – (and there is logic behind it. It's not like he wanted this). “Someone has to step up and convince Gotham things can get back to normal,” Dick says. “And serial killer Batman wasn't going to cut it.”

“Did you at least take care of him?” Damian asks.

Dick knows that Damian isn't actually worried about Jason's wellbeing, so he says, “Do you mean 'did I kill him'?”

“Tt. Obviously.”

“Obviously not.”

Damian presses his lips together in a thin line.

Dick might as well get this out of the way now. He's going to have to sometime. “Alfred wants you out of the field for four weeks.”

“That's preposterous!” Damian shouts, and as he shouts, he coughs. He rubs his chest quickly and then glowers at Dick when he sees him staring.

“Damian, you could have died.”

“I didn’t.”

Jeez, doesn’t this kid have any sense of his own mortality? Though, Dick supposes, growing up around Lazarus Pits and a centuries old grandfather might make that impossible.

“I’m not a fool, Grayson, I know I’m not capable of healing instantaneously. I’ll take a break for one week,” he offers, like it’s a huge concession on his part.

“Four weeks,” Dick says.

“What about you?” Damian asks. “Didn’t you get injured?”

“Not as badly.”

“Are you taking a break?”

“Someone needs to convince Gotham that Batman’s not dead,” Dick says. Also, he doesn’t want to take a break. He doesn’t want to be alone with his thoughts. Losing Bruce. Failing Tim.

“Tt. Then I don’t need one either. I’m younger. I heal faster.”

Dick actually has no clue whether that’s true, because he’s not a doctor, but he knows that people usually say kids heal faster.

Dick swings his arms a little, trying to feel them out. They’re still stiff, and as they move, a jolt of pain shoots through him. Even when he’s not moving, his shoulder is still sore. He knows that he might get injured going into the field like this and that it’s not a smart decision – last time he went into the field while still healing, he wound up blowing his secret identity to Blockbuster.

He decides that at least if he’s going into the field, he won’t tell Barbara and Alfred about it. Okay, so that’s probably not the smartest of his plans. Most plans that you have to hide from people who care about you aren't smart.

“I’ll take a week long break with you,” Dick concedes. “And we can see how fast you’re healing.” The second part is a lie, of course. He's not going to supersede Alfred's orders on medical matters.

Dick sighs a little. He figures that while they’re both on bed-rest duty, though, he can try to figure out how to set things up so they can operate effectively once they get a clean bill of health.

“How do you feel about not living in the manor?” Dick asks.

“Kicking me out already?”

“Don’t be ridiculous, I wouldn’t be living here either,” Dick says. It’s true. He’d rather not feel like he’s living in all of Bruce’s old places, wearing Bruce’s old costume, … replacing him, essentially. He needs a place he can clear his head.

“Where would you live then?” Damian asks skeptically.

Dick shrugs. “The penthouse, maybe. Bruce already made a bunker nearby, so we could operate out of there pretty easily.”

Damian narrows his eyes. “Why do you keep saying ‘we’?”

Because you are ten and not ready to live on your own. But Dick just says, “Well, you’re Robin now, right? That means you’re pretty much obligated to team up with Batman.”

“Batman isn’t here, Grayson. He never will be again, no matter how much you play dress-up.”

Charming kid. Like Dick didn’t already know that.

“You know I operate effectively alone, right?” Damian continues. “I don’t need to be hand-held and babysat like all of Father’s previous partners.”

Dick figures that it’d be a jerk move to remind Damian he just almost died and therefore really shouldn’t be on his own. Instead, he says, “Well, Alfred’s staying with me, so unless you want to get all your food and clean the house by yourself, you have to put up with me.”

“Tt . I don’t need a servant. I’ll just eat at restaurants.”

“On who’s money?”

“In the event of his death, my father’s assets should have transferred to me. His blood son.”

Oh boy. Dick rubs his face. “Does this have to be a thing, Damian? No one’s doubting your capacity to take care of yourself but I think it’d really be easier if we were operating out of the same building. “

A long silence on Damian’s part. “Fine,” he says eventually. “I’ll allow you to stay at my penthouse.”

My penthouse. Of course. But Dick takes it. “All right,” he says. “Let’s move in.”